retard.

1721 hours

FISHES!! I WAS COUNTING ON THAT SS TEST, DAMMIT! NOW I CAN'T MAKE MS XU HAPPY.
THE LAST THING SHE TOLD ME BEFORE THE TEST WAS "I'M VERY WORRIED FOR YOU. BECAUSE YOU FAILED YOUR HISTORY TEST AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO FORGO THIS TEST."
WHETHER OR NOT I TOOK THIS TEST, IT DOESN'T MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE. I'M GONNA FAIL THIS TEST CREATED IN A SHITTY SITUATION. FIRETRUCK!
EVERYTHING WAS FINE UNTIL YOU WERE CAUGHT READING YOUR NOTES! D:<
but, rumours might not be true all the time..
so, i don't know which part is not true, but i know you were in the wrong.
but i can't fully blame you.
because it's just normal to clarify your doubts. (:
forgive. and forget. (:
it was our fault too, to assume what's gonna come out..
so, you're not totally to be blamed. ;D

ANYWAY,,,,,,
I CAN'T WAIT TO GET RYO-CHAN'S KEYCHAIN!!!!
yeah, hasn't reached Singapore yet..
ok, that's all.
2 DAYS TO EOY DUDES AND DUDETTES OUT THERE!

You can do it, you really can do it, run through it, pass through the light
Again everything, for all the world, things like complaints and anxiety will stay around,
I've given everything to you, I want you to smile once more, to laugh once more
Because there's still more to come, it's not over

- LIFE~ Me no Mae no Mukou e (Kanjani8)

2011 hours

oh gosh, i can NEVER say that i'll NEVER touch this computer again.
just can't help it.. ;b
end of years are coming...
i'm seriously studying, alright! hahah!
ehhhhhh~
school's worse than ever.
problems came up one after another.
but, oh well.
i have to start living for myself and not for others.
i have to start living to please myself and not please others.
like, seriously.
i don't care what others say.
as long as i'll be happy, i'll do anything i like.
hahah, like drawing.
currently protesting against my mum who won't let me draw.
don't know what's up with that.. but.. oh well..

jalan raya with friends yesterday!
OMG, i shouted when my mum allowed me to go!!
but didn't really enjoyed myself though..
i almost felt like i was transparent..
but it was waaayyyy much better than last time. :D
thanks to my AWESOME FRIENDS Nazihah Na'amsah, Nurul Irdina, Ezaidah Wahyu Nur Atiqa and Nurra Safirah! <3
oh, and Yazid for talking to me at the train station (although it was only two to three lines)
but the best part was when i got to talk with Ezaidah and Atiqa as per normal again!! :D
too bad Matin didn't get to join us... D:
get well soon, dude.
i'm tired of saying this already.

oooooh, and guess what?!
my mum's friend is getting us NEWS goodies from Japan!!
aaaaahhhh~!!!
although i reaaaaalllllly wish for Kanjani8 ones..
but my sis' getting Nasu and Yellow Rangers' keychain!!!
from California!!
seriously, being an eighter had globalized me! :D:D:D

ok, so that's all for now! :D

i don't know why, but i have this incomplete feeling that kept me going online, checking the net. but i don't even know which website it's leading me to.
yeah, in the end, i landed on this website.
maybe the feeling is trying to let out all everything i've kept inside?

true love is someone who you get angriest at, who you will cry for, and who you will miss like shit when they're gone. i love you. still. (guys, please don't think it's Ian. seriously)

2132 hours~

aaaah!!
dang, can't resist it!!
have to blog, have to blog.
that's all i think about.
i can't take everything that's happening to me right now.
one problem after another.
what's wrong with me?
gosh, can't i just have a peaceful life?
BUT. i'm so happy that I HAVE ACTUALLY STARTED MY REVISION!!!!!!!
^^
ok, something wrong with the font right now...
shhheeeesssshhhh.....~~~~

this is a song to all my muslim friends. i've just got to know it recently. it really helped me through my current situation, Alhamdulillah. :D

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent
And that's it's way too late
You're so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you'll find your way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you'll find your way

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in him
Raise your hands and pray
ooo Ya Allah
Guide my steps don't let me go astray
You're the only one that showed me the way
Showed me the way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah we'll find the say

- Insya Allah by Maher Zain :D

OH, AND BY THE WAY, HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY, SUBARU!! AND HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, EITO!!!! <3

oh, and you. if you know who i'm refering to.
yeah, i know it's kinda rude to blog about this, but i guess this is better than facebook.
even if i like you, you seriously don't have to reject me that harsh, damn you.
and seriously, no matter what i'm still older than you, apparently.
too bad, you still have to respect me.
i treat you as my brother and i get this shit from you?
and fuck off was all you knew?
i'm sad, dear brother.
you need a new english teacher. like, seriously.

1857 hours~

whhhheeesssshhhh~~!!!
tomorrow's tha last day, guys!! :D:D:D:D
anyway, since i'm not going to touch my lappie until after EOY after this post, i would like to wish all my muslim friends

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!! in advanced. :D
and to my other friends, start mugging!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR EOY!! :D

okay.. i'll be on a hiatus now..
see you.... soon (:
byebye!

Ryo-chan is loved!! oh, no.. KANJANI8 is <3333!!!><

gooossshhhh... i need to buy specs!!
like seriously..
walking like a blind man in the dark and showing a crammed face reading the little details on the computer?
confirm plus chop i have to get a new pair of specs.
going with Munah on wednesday~
aww, miss going out with you guys..
the sky's super dark right now..
but still not raining..
ok, lightning!!
byebye!!

You know you love me, i know you care
Just shout whenever, and i'll be there
You want my love, you want my heart
And we will never ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
We're just friends, What are you saying
Said there's another, look right in my eyes

My first love broke my heart for the first time
And i was like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine.. mine

1653 hours

2049 hours ~

*coarse language alert! but oh well.. i just can't keep this feeling to myself anymore. uhh, come on.. 2 continuous years keeping this inside me?.. but friends, please don't read this.. hahah! ;D

to that 'special' someone whom i've been keeping my hatred for..

you've lowered my dignity.
you've made me cry.
you've hurt me like hell.
you've made stories about me like shit.
you've told the whole world about that shit you made.
you've snatched my friends.
now what? you're dumping them?
back off la.
i regret not calling you a bitch last time.
i don't care even if you see this post.
well, that's want i really want.
wake up la.
you think this world is only yours?
then dude, you seriously need to wake up.
this world doesn't revolve around you and only you.
and seriously, even if your mouth is shut, the whole damn world already know about it.
it's about YOUR actions, not her mouth.
and you want to know why i don't want to say this face to face?
first, because i don't want to waste my precious time arguing with you, looking at your pretty face, feeling like smacking it all the time.
second, because i want the whole world to know how bitchy you can be.
you're a bitch and you made me one too, bitch.
you've hurt my friend and i'll make sure i'll hurt you.
you've won last time, but i promise, you'll never win this time.

anyway, to the bright side!
hahah!
i've always been wondering what love really is..
is it a feeling that makes your heart pump fast when you see him?
is it a feeling which you can feel your blood rising up to your head?
is it a feeling which you feel like seeing him everyday?
is it a feeling which makes you feel like wanting him to be by your side always?
whhooosshh~
i'm confused..
minie mynie minie more?
aiisshhh.. why must i always be left with more than two choices?
aaiiissshhh.. heh ;D
i'm being retarded.. :/
4 more days~ nyahahaha!
right? lol..
anyway, start mugging everyone!!
like what..? 3 more weeks?
whheeessshh, that's near!!!
*breathe in, breathe out.. next thing to do, PANIC AT THE DISCOOO!!!!
heh, i mean PANIC!! next thing to do.. RUUUUNNNN!!!
gosh, seriously, i'm getting so retarded..
so.. i want to be retard no more (heh, Shakespearean language? lol..)
sayonara, sayur kobes! bye! :D