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(Monday, November 22, 2010 @ 9:32 PM)
2137 hours says:
I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON THE GAME TILL THE BUZZER SOUNDS.
never give up on a game before it ends; that's what i learnt from watching Buzzer Beat. yeaps, I WON'T. you started the game, i'll end it. i won't be defeated again, i promise. i won't be weak like how i used to be. just like the theme of Buzzer Beat "Love makes me strong". and yes, it does. i'm not gonna lose anymore.
BRING IT ON.
( @ 1:59 PM)
1424 hours says:
hahah! jasssooonnnnn! Eito is just a bunch of cute idiots whom i idolize. there's no chance of me MARRYING them. so i don't really care on THAT part.. you know.. heh, so.. i can safely say that the conference guy is cuter than Eito. but, nah.. i'm not going for him. hahah! but he's cute. cuter than Eito. :b but no, i'm not in love with him. hahah!!
i've started watching Buzzer Beat again!! hahah, now i know why i stopped watching last time.. that's because VEOH SUCK. urggghhh. annoying web player.. yeah, now i'm stuck at episode 3. and that's ALL BECAUSE OF VEOH AND MY SUCKY INTERNET CONNECTION!! aaarrrrrghghghghghghhhhhh! -_- the theme song.. somehow reminded me of the past. it's the feeling again, ahh, how i hate it. the UNKNOWN feeling.. )): haisssshh.. ohhh well.. anyway, i'm still gonna try my best with VEOH and start watching it! byebye!
さよなら シャーズワン。
(Sunday, November 21, 2010 @ 1:35 PM)
100th POST! says:
1357 hours
ohh, yeay, it's the hundredth post. -.- i don't have anything special for this post.. feeling quite down nowadays.. sheeesh, being rejected badly, that's what i hate the most. being rejected by my closest friend, THAT'S EVEN WORSE. tssk. i hate being looked up upon when they're in need and then leave me just like that when they're happy. tsssk, WHAT A BITCH. oh, yeay, i'm finally using that word. -.- yes, i got used to that word ever since that thing happened. though until now, i'm still not clear what the hell happened. AND NO ONE ELSE HAS TO KNOW IT. so DON'T EVER ask me about this thing. i just need to express it out, okay. something i've been holding on to. once it's been done, i'll NEVER forget it. unless the whole story is being explained laah..
okay, don't mind that anymore. i mean, the thing that happened a long time ago. i can't think straight anymore.. i don't have the physical and emotional strength to think about it anymore. if you know you're going to hurt me over and over again, just, leave me alone, alright. i'm not worth anything in your life. i mean, i just exist when you need me. and when you're happy, you forget me. do you know how sad it is? get a life, dude. oh, wait. i should say that to myself. i have to get a life. I DON'T LIVE TO PLEASE YOU. it's always about YOU. it's you, you and YOU. i hate you.
wooow, that's so dramatic!! ^^ hahah! now i have an idea for my fanfic! suhhweeets!
i love the recent weather. it's so nice~ i hope it's gonna be sunny next Tuesday! cuz we're having a reunion! O_O dangg, i'm getting retarded. again. heh :b and knowing that conference guy.. he really changed my current life. heh. now with him on my mind, i can't choose between two! i did say "i hope i can meet him again.. oh, no, that would just make the situation worse" and, indeed, it did. but i hope i can meet him again. so i have the chance to talk to him. and tell him i just want to be friends. ((: damn, that conference guy is cute! but he's handsome. ;b
oookaaay, this post is long enough. so much for my 100th post, huh.. aites, hear from me soon! :D:D my dramatic life..
私の劇的な人生 i hope it's the right thing! hahah!
(Saturday, November 20, 2010 @ 2:00 PM)
1417 hours says:
ohhkaaay. i've decided to go for him instead of the conference guy. heh, since there's a chance.. why not grab it? ((: but dude.. can you reply your sms faster? shheeeesh..
blushed too much yesterday and the day before. the day before, because of the conference guy. yesterday, because of him. QI FANG and SITI AMIRAH really made me blushed ALOT yesterday! hahah! friendship bonded because of him! heh!
i've just realised, when i feel tensed, i tend to have stomach ache. and it'll only get worse unless i close my eyes and relax my mind. it hurts like damn hell! i thought i was having food poisoning or something! hahah!
ohh, and we've started practicing our dikir barat! weets~! it's cool, man! i'm startin' to like it! ^^ looking forward to Tuesday, guys! ((;
that's the end of this post. FULLSTOP. heh byebye~!
I HATE BEING TAKEN FOR GRANTED, ASS.
(Thursday, November 18, 2010 @ 2:07 PM)
1424 hours says:
i got superh retarded yesterday. lol.. okayy, shall stop this thing about this guy.. haisss.. i don't think we're even going anywhere. so, now, i'm gonna start with my Sarawak trip thingy! ^^ we're doing dikir barat, bebeh! heh, it's supposed to be cancelled, but.. oh well.. ((:
i guess that's all i have to say for today! byebye, yows!
I wish to the sky, give me that winter one more time, with you… I wish for snow wish for snow wish for snow - Yuuki wo Kudasai
(Wednesday, November 17, 2010 @ 2:28 PM)
1530 HOURS says:
urghhh.. this is super damn annoying. whenever i think of you or look at your facebook page, I GET A STOMACH ACHE! it hurts, seriously.. kecut perut aku.. /: haiissszxzxz... hope you'll confirm me as friend soon!! cause i wanna ask you about your walking problem. LOLOL!
okay, whatever.. i need to start on my Christmas fic! or, at least, MY HOMEWORK. been busy with Sarawak meetings and MAC.. now that MAC's done, need to deal with sarawak trip projects.. shheeeesh..
OMG. was talking to nasrul on facebook. HE SAID HE TOLD THE CONFERENCE GUY I ADDED HIM, LIKE WTH. shheeesh.. he haven't accept me yet, anyway.. haisss..
okay, gonna work on my christmas fic now byebye
JUST. ACCEPT ME WILL YA? -.-
(Monday, November 15, 2010 @ 5:44 PM)
overly infatuated says:
1808 hours
Mock Asean Conference is finally OVERRH! weeets!~~ just now was awesome, during the conferencing and stuff. heheh!! met a hot guy from Anderson Sec! omg, i don't know why, but i kept looking at him. urrrghhh! oh, there was some times he looked at me too. we exchanged glances, heh, that moment.. i wish it would never end! ohh weeellll... but just a few minutes ago (maybe an hour or so alrdy..) i "stalked" him. Carene and Janziel (was it Janziel or Juliana?) was shouting "go, catch up with him" because we were taking the same route home (nah, actually there was a shortcut to my house.. LOL) heh!! BUT! his friends were like BEHIND CARENE and she was SHOUTING LIKE A MAD WOMAN! OMG! i was already blushing! heh! then, i saw him running off to Nuovo. but at least before he started running, we managed to exchange glances! hahah! but i guess he was running away from me.. TROLOLOL! <--- what does this exactly mean?? okkaayy.. i seriously don't know why i tend to like guys who are rich, without knowing that they are actually rich! First it was Ian, and then *ahem ahem* and then, this Fauzan guy! awwwh, if only we'd meet again.. but that'll be disasterous! i can't make up my mind between the two then! ohh well... as Ariel said "Let time tells" usaha. doa. tawakal. (effort. pray. leave it to fate)
just now, was simply just awesome. the feeling died down already.. awwwh... )): oh well, tomorrow SARAWAK TRIP MEETING! weeets~! but still need to used my brain and vocal chords. nyeehh... but still.. at least i don't have to stay at home and miss that guy.. hmmm.. maybe i can see him on the streets? LOL! HELLO! in school i'm already meeting *ahem ahem*. haiiyyyooo.. choose one luhhh.. but somehow, my infatuations are always stronger than crushes... )): haizxzszxzxszsxxzszxzszxzsxzs.... *hee hee hoo.. hee hee hoo..* okay, i guess this post is long enough! ;D byebye!
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face i came to know is missing too When you're gone The words i need to hear to always get me through the day And make it okay I miss you
(Sunday, November 14, 2010 @ 7:11 PM)
1924 hours says:
15 more days, bebeh! yeah, for real. i lost track of the date a few days ago. LOL.
I HAVE DIARRHOEA! (food poisoning) DAMN, IT'S ANNOYING! aarrghhhh. okayy.. soo.. i've started my tumblr but i don't have any followers yet.. besides my sister, that is.. i'm soh sadded. hahah! oh well.. i'm starting to love Maru, like seriously. sexy osaka man, no more my favourite. awwh, sad! I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO POST. nyeehh..
またたき始めた幾千の星 その下で僕らは共に生きてる 小さな瞳の向こうに 掻き消されていくキミの声
We are living together under those thousands of stars that have begun to twinkle Beyond your little eyes your voice is drowned out
- Kitto Shiawase ga Kimi wo Matteru きっと幸せがキミを待ってるby Ohkura Tadayoshi, Kanjani8
(Saturday, November 13, 2010 @ 2:47 PM)
1530 hours says:
hawt much. i've just created a tumblr! anf i'm sooo following yadaeighter! ((: STALKER. heh, nahh.. alright, shall keep this post short ((:
My most precious person (I felt a bond) Therefore you (are not alone anymore) The thing I protect is not my own, but this hand held in mine I’ll always be by your side (coming closer together) Our memories together (overflow) Engraving our love The sun fills the sky Please shine over our future
- Dear... by Murakami Shingo
(Friday, November 12, 2010 @ 10:13 PM)
2227 hours says:
ah, now i know why i dreamt of that kissing scene. the feeling.. is the same that i had for this video. (last part, when the kid kissed Maru)
not sure if it's right.. shheeeshh.. but, anyways, now, i can finally relax, waiting for another sign.. )): good night! おやすみ ! ((:
( @ 7:39 PM)
LOL says:
2025 hours
ok, guys, you can all LAUGH OUT LOUD now. i'm still posting. i don't know why, but my instincts told me to do this. i wanted to go to my plurk but my fingers typed blogger instead. WTF. freaky, right? this is not the first time. ahhh. super annoying. now i can't do anything myself. blame myself for day-dreaming all the time, even now. damn, it's freaky.
just now, i had a dream. a beautiful dream i've never thought of in my whole entire life. someone kissed me. hahah, dareka ga watashi ni kisu wo shita 誰かが私にキスをした it's a movie, by the way. it's called Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac. yeah, it has something to do with the book, i guess.. ok, back to my point. the person who kissed me. until now, i still can't imagine it happening in real life. the guy.. was so random! it was someone i'm not really that close to from 3C1. (someone who still owes me 2 bucks) it was Adiy. (i don't even know how to spell his name!) but awwh, it was so sweet.. i expected someone else to be in the place of Adiy.. shheeeshh.. oh well.. 15 MORE DAYS, BEBEH! suhhweeetts! hmm.. i've nothing else to write about.. that's sad.. MAC is next week! aaahhh! i'm not prepared! JULIANNNAAAAA! i'll be counting on you! :x hahah! i just love writing in japanese.. Kanji + Hiragana + Katakana = (can't explain) but it's shown up there! ((: i feel like downloading the Japanese font. LOL. i wanna go out soon! oh, wait, i AM going out soon! weeets! 6.5 outing! :D:D aaannnnd this SUNDAY! K2 graduation! weee~! okay, that's all i've got for now. gotta prepare for MAC. but i'll be doing my fic first! /: byebye!~
(Monday, November 8, 2010 @ 6:50 PM)
1905 hours says:
weets! 90th post! gaawdd.. i should just stop posting pictures of them. heh, yeah, i know it's annoying. my tagboard is dying every second. and, i promise you, this would be my last post here. (:
being with you for one and a half years, that's just awesome. thanks for always being there for me when i needed someone to talk to. thank you so much for being the only one listening to my rants. thank you so much for going through thick and thin with me. there were times when the rain fell heavily and there were times when the sun shone brightly on me. and you were always there for me. thank you, dear. i guess this is not the first time i'm saying this. but for now, it's real. this would be our last time we'll be together. i found a replacement. but nothing would ever replace you in my heart. i loved the times when you watched movies with me i loved the times when you watched videos with me. i especially loved the times when you didn't accept these <3>
because the codes are incomplete
dear, i will NEVER forget you. although it might be tempting to approach you again.. i guess.. i shall try not to.. i'm sorry if this is not my last. i'm sorry if in the future i would bug you again. but dear, you're the best of the BEST! i love you and only you! I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST BLOG!!!! heh, surprised huh? LOL. i'd reeeeaaalllly hope this won't be the last.. ((: but anyway, before i sign off, let's go off with Maru's PAAAN!
SEI NO.. PAAAAAAN!
さよなら。
(Sunday, November 7, 2010 @ 3:38 PM)
YOKO IN TOWN! says:
1638 HOURS
WTF.
YOKO'S IN TOWN. AS IN YOKOYAMA YOU. IN SINGAPORE. IN ORCHARD. LIKE, 3 HOURS AGO. WTF.
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AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
lucky yooouuuu!!!
don't mean to be rude, but..
why is it that it's always a non-fan that gets to meet the person you idolize?!
aaaahh!
though you're a Ryo fan (like me), you get to see Yokocho!
aahhh! WTF. i wanna meet him too!
he's one of my favs from Kanjani8!!
but, anyway, I'm happy for you!! <3
you're one lucky person!
you got the tickets for their con too!
oh wait, you can fit into the NEWS concert tee??
cool, mine's wwaaaayyyy too small.
NICE KNOWING THAT THERE'S MORE EIGHTERS OUT THERE IN SINGAPORE!
weeeets! give K8 more love, yos!
hahah! it was funny when you posted the post on the K8 community and all the Singapore Eighters pop out!
you're suuuppppeeeerrrr lucky! gawd..
but yeah, when Ryo comes to Singapore, LET'S AMBUSH HIM TOGETHER.
and seeing a girl with Yoko?
*cross fingers* please, oh please let her be his girlfriend. ^^
gaawd, seriously, i guess all the other eighters would be happy for him! (:
ok.. fuuu.. fuu..
*calms down*
i wanted to close down this blog but i just can't stop my rants on my idols.
ahhh..
i'll link my blog at my livejournal so other eighters can see this post too!
OMG. i still can't stop thinking about Yoko being in Singapore!
i mean, we're stepping on the same land, man!
if only you would wander around the streets of Ang Mo Kio or something.
GAAAAHHHH!
look at these signs:
-Kanjani8's Wonderful World was used as the song for the advertisement on Channel U
- That goes the same for a TegoMass song
- Yamampi and Tegoshi appeared on the Channel U advertisement
AND NOW, YOKO'S IN SINGAPORE?!
this just tells me that those are signs of JE guys having cons here! OMFG. imagine if that were to happen! (amin!!)
ok... an hour has passed since i started writing this post..
my excitement has subsided a bit..
pheeeww.. but i can totally imagine Yoko popping out at my front gate.
it's the 88th post and today's Ryo's birthday! weets! sooo, after my post, there's gonna be picspams of Ryo macros i made! :D:D i should create a tumblr! XD
YESTERDAY on the way to school, met some MATREPs in the train.. one of them was Isa! ahh, i miss him.. but too bad he's a mat rep. thheennn went to school as usual. DnT was awesome yesterday! hahahahahah!!
ok.. so.. what happened today? AWESOME. school started a lil late, at 9.. i thought i was early, but when i reached school, Shirree told me Ms Lee was already in class.. so i rushed up to level three just in time. JUST A SINGLE SLIGHT SECOND BEFORE MS LEE CALLED MY NAME TO MARK MY ATTENDANCE!! holy crap, i was so damn lucky! and thennn.. had a test on the SolidWorks thingy for DnT.. ((: it was eaassyy peeesssyy.. ^^ after that, waited for an hour for MY DEAREST SECRETARY who was having her Taiwan trip briefing.. and then, off to lunch (thanks Ronald!!) thenn, went back and did book-checking in Cornerstone.. Ms Lee gave us KitKats! ^^ then i made my way to the zoo.. alone.. I ALMOST GOT LOST WITH THE MONKEYS! i stopped at a bus stop in the middle of nowhere to change busses.. and around the bus stop, THERE WAS A HELL LOT OF MONKEYS! i got ssuuuuuuupppppperrrrr scared and started singing to myself.. then, when the bus came, i flagged like a mad woman. "-_- hahah! then, took 138 straight home ((:
ok.. now, to my picspams!! anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NISHIKIDO RYO!!!~
(Monday, November 1, 2010 @ 6:03 PM)
superman, it's you, jii-chan! says:
1844 hours
fooooohhh! A POST MORE TO THE 88TH! shall post it on Ryo's birthday (on the 3rd).. so... will be skipping tomorrow! :D:D
weeeeeeetttss~ y'know, since this kindest soul on earth named NAZIHAH BTE NA'AMSAH doesn't like what i like, i shall stop posting about my j-pop crap. hahah! doesn't make sense AT ALL. BUT! will be updating my livejournal! ^^ like.. finally.. -.- if only my scanner works on my laptop.. if only i could scan my drawings and post in on my livejournal! AAAARRGGGHHH, DAMNYOU, DAMN SCANNER! omg, i've turned unsensored again..
didn't really have fun today cause FAZLEEEE didn't come to school! arrghhh.. POA lesson.. borriinnggg.. but for the first time in Singapore's history, i actually kept myself busy during the whole hour of POA.!! yeah.. i'm calling it POA, not HELL. (: ahhh.. having neck pain AGAIN. ME WANT SALONPAS! uurrgghh.. my present you're about to give me.. can you give me Salonpas instead? like.. seriously.. orrrr maybe.. a massaging machine or something? it's hurts.. ):
I'M GOING TO DA ZOOOO TOMORROW! SUUHHHWEEEETS! the one who picked up my call was awesome. he's super friendly! ((: can't wait to go there tomorrow! ^^
oii Nazihah! i reeeaaalllyy want you to watch this video and look at the lyrics and know what is friendship all about. PLLLEEEEEEEAAAASSSSEEE. JUST. THIS. VIDEO.
though he's not handsome, his voice suck and all.. i want you to look at the lyrics.. it's based on a true story and he made it into a song beautifully.. this song reeeaallly bonded the fans and them.. it also strengthen the friendship between these 7 Kansai (Osaka) guys. you can see them smiling and a later part of the song.. those. are real smiles. real laughter. not plastic ones ((((:
AND I HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOU TODAY. THANKS, YOS! :D:D
413man (jii-chan)
If you could have one wish granted, what will it be? Someone once said that on a television anime. I am sure everyone thought about that before I tried to think about it too Will I want to be rich? Have a cute girlfriend? Receive a Gal`s panties? Grant me 100 more wishes? It always finishes without deciding on one I tried to think about it now that I am an adult again The first thing that popped into my head was To say thank you to Jii-chan who is in heaven If I met you now I wonder how will it be like? Will you realized that its me now that I am all grown up? I am not confident that I can tell you what I want properly, so I will try to sing you a song Although I inherited your bad singing, Jii-chan
We always slept together in the small six-tatami mats room, with Jii-chan and Baa-chan You always played with me on holidays We went to catch bugs together Jii-chan was a professional at catching bugs Then there was one day, you said `we can`t go today, I am sorry` I still remember even now, that sad look on your face I heard much later, that your heart became weaker You didnt show me your weakness, I wished you told me
Jii-chan came home from the hospital There was something on top of your heart When I asked `does it hurt?` You smiled and said `Jii-chan became superman` You were so cool
Superman, to me, that`s you Jii-chan Have I became even just a little closer to you? I`ve found precious friends too Superman, can I become one too? Have I learnt how to smile just a little like you? Even such a person like me, I have people who support me
On the day you left All the adults were laughing I didnt know, On that day, we were suppose to send you off, laughing I scolded everyone, `what are you laughing at!` I was scolded by mum, `what are you doing!` I am sorry Jii-chan, I was a kid all the way to the end
Superman, to me, that`s you Jii-chan Have I became even just a little closer to you? I`ve found precious friends too Superman, can I become one too? Have I learnt how to smile just a little like you? Even such a person like me, I have people who support me
Jii-chan, I will try to say this all over Thank you for making me meals Thank you for appearing in my dreams on my 20th birthday Thank you for teaching me lots and lots of gentleness I will say all this forever and ever and ever
Thank you.
I DIDNT TRANSLATE THE LYRICS (:
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