welcome to my island! (:

2132 hours

2012-01-30T21:31:00.001+08:00

GOT INTO NURSING AT NYP! ^^

Alhamdulillah..

that's all for now.

kaythanksbye. (:

1707 hours

2012-01-16T16:47:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, got 16 for L1R4. (:

though i expected a bit better..

oh, and if you, bitch, are reading this, hah, go ahead and tell the whole world how bad my score is compared to yours.

hahahah, if only one i can face you again..

i'd really wanna punch your bitch face.

but, oh well, life's awesome without you in it.

it's kinda boring though.. not being bitch-ed about..

for three years, i've been layan-ing your shitty crap, so i got used to it. hmmm.

okay, enough about that. i promise i'll never think about that bitch again this year.

it's a new year, man! why cling onto the past? it'll only do me bad..

mum asked me what i want as a present for my unbelievable results. aww, i love my mother.

hmmm, what do i want eh?

i just want a family.

i want a father. my father.

my father who i thought i knew so well.

my father who i thought was the best father in the whole wide world.

my father who i thought was the only one in my heart.

can the fairy tale just continue?

hmmm, fat hope.

oh well, i should really stop being so emotional this year. hehee.

poly posting results coming out soooon. don't know when though..

hmm, just wish me luck!

wokaays, will blog on my next off day!

hah, yeah, i'm working with "BlackCloset" at Isetan.

seriously macam setan! ish ish.. will talk about it some other timeeee.

okok. BYEBYE!

doron!

2011-12-17T13:38:00.002+08:00

weeeew~ backs!
wonder why blogger is so different now..
life's awesome.
went for checkup yesterday, nothing much.
everything's fine. (:
NO CANCER! :D
had council farewell last wednesday.
wasn't as fun as last year. ):
no bbq, no movie marathon, NO COUNCIL CHEER!!! RAWR.
but still, it was fun. last moments with the councillors..
can't believe we were told off for being cheerful on a solemn occasion, though.
what the hell. haiyyaaa, last scolding from ms soo.
result's on the first week of january.
just hoping for the best...!!!!! D;

i'm all alone at home now.. sadded.
so lonely.. ):
there's still a few places i would reeaaalllly want to venture before school starts!
hmmm..
- fort canning
- bukit timah hill
- sembawang park
- the west part of singapore!

okaay. hmmm. i want to go east coast park tooooo!
someone, PLEASE take me there. D:
oh, jurong bird park, also. since i have free entrance. ;p
but too bad not working in zoo anymore.. :(
if it weren't for the beer, i would still have worked there.
oh well. lemme enjoy my hols first~
oh, went on GRED LINES adventure the other day .
GRED --> Green + Red
the mrt lines. get it?
ANYWAY, went Jurong East first.
then went to RVHS! aww, sweet memories there.
then went to this park in Boon Lay, since it's already nearby.
the park was so aman.. peaceful.. a nice place to go when your life's all fucked up.
but recently, the mrt system's such a mess.
3 days in a row, services disrupted. what the hell, smrt?
i want to go on an adventure on the buses too!
asyik ambik mrt jer.. naik mendak lah pulak..
okay lah, that's all for this post~
BYEBYE!

walau raga kita terpisah jauh,
namun hati kita selalu dekat.
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu.
percayakan kesetiaan ini,
pada ketulusan a a ai aishiteru. <3

- aishiteru, zivilia band

0211 hours

2011-11-19T02:00:00.002+08:00

okaaays.

I'M BORED TO DEATH.

gosh, someone, HELP ME.

waiting for my sister to come home.

lambatnyer~

hmmmmm~

i really don't know what to blog about.

having mixed feelings. no, i mean moodswings.

and it's SERIOUSLY, FREAKING annoying, not being able to breathe properly.

seriously.

can i just be hospitalized again?

i can get attention 24 hours a day.

cool sehh. no need be attention seeker like someone said i was.

hah, in the end, who was the attention seeker? letting the whole school know about us.

what the hell. hah. kay Mai, stop talking about that.

anywaaaay, PROM'S ON MONDAY! ^^

yipeeee~

for the first time in... 10 years?

wearing a dress~

wanted a gown, though.. ):

neh mind. finally i can be a girl. a pure one.

tomboy? nooope. no more!

well, at least just for monday!

ohmygawd, my stomach's churning.

KAK! CAN YOU COME BACK A LIL FASTER?!

it's already past 2am in the mooorrrning!

dayum.

2336 hours

2011-11-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

wow.. ader lah aku tertunggu-tunggu mak aku tengok results aku.

akhirnya, pandang kat kertas tu pon tidak.

wow. hmmm, baik. k.

aper kalau aku dapat 12 untuk O's aku eh?

aku rasa, tu pon, mak aku tak pandang laa.

tengok ah kakak aku. dapat 10. hmmm. ye laa, aku ni, mana sepandai kakak aku la kan..

when will she even notice my existence eh?

bila aku mati baru kot..

mesti korang cakap "jangan lah cakap gitu.." kan?

ah ye. dah biasa dah orang cakap gitu.

korang maner faham. betapa sakitnya hatiku ini. cheeyyy, speakong ah ni budak..

heeee.

okay la, no time to ber-emosional.

last paper tomorrow.

heard it? LAST PAPER TOMORROW!

paper tomorrow and what am i doing now?

BLOGGING. TUMBLRING. FACEBOOKING.

wow. awesome. takyah belajar pe?

oh, it's 1111! <3

kay, nothing special.

ever since i came back from my cousin's, it felt like i'm back to my old life.

yeaps. exactly. feeling neglected and powerless.

powerless? come on, a Leo shouldn't be feeling that way!

but, what to do? my smart sister is always making me feel small.

of course i hate to lose, but i can't do anything else.

whatever i say, i'd still lose. kay, maybe you don't understand what i'm talking about.

forget it.

been emotional these days.

PMS. guh.

can i just permanently stay at my cuz's? D;

he's the bessstesst friend and the only one who can understand me!

can someone else understand me as how he does? );

i guess i'll scare all the guys away with bitchy attitude.

maybe i should just get away from guys. no, from everyone. hmm, that's better.

oh, look. how long does it take for me just to create a post? 45 minutes?

what the hell.

okays. gonna study now.

I'M GOING TO STUDY NOW. kaythanksbye.

1255 hours

2011-11-10T12:43:00.003+08:00

heeeyyy. kay, long enough?

was reading through my old posts just now.

brought back old memories, ne~

i really wanted to delete my blog. no point keeping it right?

well, yeah, that's what i thought.

but reading all those posts again made me think how immature i was.

i got to know myself better. heeee~

okaays. so where was i since the last post?

hmmm. hospital stay? done!

gonna have a follow-up on the eighteenth.

daaang, how i hate the ultrasound check-up.

i have to fill my bladder until i get urgent. to pee. and i have to hold it.

i have to suffffer through the check.

guuhhhh. neh mind, just bear with it, Mai! :D

having O-Levels. weird. why am i even online?!

hah. nah, left with Science MCQ. paper 1.

it's next Monday. soooo, MCQ only mah.. weekends can study laa.

haiyyooo, Mai, where can like that..

hahah, here comes my Singlish accent. kay, Mai dah merepek.

i did my best for all my papers. except POA. i gave up. some of my classmates didn't even turn up for the paper.

haiyooo. but paper one was fine. i guess.

really went full-throttle for Math. i don't want to fail, okay!

there's no time for failures!

i've always had this in my mind : LET'S GO ZENKAI. (full-throttle)

and yeap, i did.

planning to work in the zoo during the hols.

but have yet to call for an interview.. :/

hmmmm.

oh! i found this dress on a blogshop.

maaan, i really wanna buy it.. ):

hmmm, i'll try to persuade my mum.

i'm using my own money, anyway.

should be fine with it.

i have nothing much to blog about for now..

i guess that's all, then. (:

byebyeees~!

~ you stole my heart. and i want you to keep it. will you?

1503 hours

2011-07-30T14:55:00.002+08:00

weeeeeeew~

long enough? yeapyeap.

hmmmm, where do i start?

hmmmmm.

have been watching Ao no Exorcist and Zenkai Girl.

RYO IS SOOO CUTE IN ZENKAI GIRL!

every scene of him is a kyyaaaa scene. ^^

kyyaaaaaaa. he's just so cute! i ship them both. <3

hmmm, school? school's fine (:

have to go for counselling almost everyday.

social adjustment disorder.

what the hell is that?

have to go for follow ups at the hospital, blahblahblah.

LOTS of things are happening. but Mai, stay cool. heehee.

from now on, i won't care about what others say about me.

i'll start to be selfish and only care for myself.

i'm a slut, bitch, attention seeker, sore loser? whatever.

at least i'm not poking into others' business and i mind my own. (:

i might not be updating my blog often. "will", that is.

but i'll try to keep it alive. (:

sooo, i'll just go off now. byebyess~

(:

2011-06-14T20:10:00.002+08:00

2018 hours

heyy, how long has it been? decades? well, yeah, maybe.

HAHAH! i'm baaack!

watched "aku tak bodoh" and felt like blogging again.

life's been tough.

failed my mid-years like crap. was admitted to hospital. LOW BLOOD COUNT.

five dayssss. but, it was an awesome stay.

made new friends. yeaaah, friends. like, BABIES. D;

but, yeah, they're awesome. i mean, you don't have to listen to bitch stories and stuff.

HAH. and, oh, been emotional these days. doctor said moodswings due to low blood.

SAD LIFE.

alright, i guess that's it for now. coming back soooon! :D

1204 hours

2011-04-10T11:54:00.002+08:00

HAHAH, MIRAH.

HERE'S FOR YOU.

your brother's hair's AWESOME. :b

kay, i shall stop it with his hair.

HAHAH!

i'm so bored right nowww...

just gonna stand here and stay single.

but that's alright because i dont fucking care.

just gonna stand here and on tumblr.

but that's alright cause i'm in love with my bias.

okaaay, this sounds soooo MINGLISH.

hahahah! malay english. minglish. get it? ;D

awesome outing yesterday.

shouldnt elaborate much.

alright. that's all for now!

byebye :D

2227 hours

2011-04-08T22:01:00.003+08:00

alright, this is going to be a looong post. i've warned you!

it's gonna be some sort of a compo, so you don't really have to read it.

just posting for memories.

alright, so, here i go. (:

My life is imperfect. But it's the imperfection which made my life perfect.

Days passed with no difference. Though i made effort to change each day.

Time passed without us realizing it. Time flies real fast. But there's no way to stop it.

All we can do is. To get along with the flow.

Even though i have hardships in my life that people had NEVER thought about, there are still days which brighten up my dull life.

Those mistakes and regrets, they are the ones who colour my life.

Bitches come and go. Just like friends do. But true friend will always stay by my side.

And although my trust was crumpled, i began to start cutting and pasting new, untouched paper onto my crumpled paper.

Now that i've started becoming independent, the whole world welcomes me. I see no cage trapping me and controlling my life. I suddenly had the strength to become stronger after falling down so hard. I had the strength to pick myself up again. I finally had the freedom of choosing my friends.

The freedom of mixing with everyone without restrains from my "good friends".

My eyes were finally wide open for me to see the whole truth. Those who are true to me, and those who just treat me for granted. And even those who sees me as their enemy.

Having an enemy is not a bad thing after all. You'll know that someone actually know about your existence.

Schoolwork, relationships, friendships. Aren't these the most important things in a teenager's life? Schoolwork has always been a problem for me. Adding on to it, the friendship problems. When you enter a secondary school's life, there are always problems related to these categories. The only way for you to overcome these problems is to listen to your heart. YOU are the only one who can make a change in your life. It's YOUR life. It's YOUR fight.

If you're weak and you know that, find a close friend who is able to make you stronger. That's one way to overcome your problems. GIRLS can NEVER solve a problem on her own. Every girl needs a close friend. But between the close friends, TRUST must ALWAYS be present.

Lastly, i'm thankful for the life i've been given and i'll try my very best to live through it with all my effort.

kaay, this is leading to nowhere. it was just random talk. that's how i've been feeling nowadays..

soooo, i guess i'm going off now! :D

byebye!

2113 hours

2011-04-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

there's tests every single day for the whole weeeek!

GAAAWD. except friday. :D

yyeeeaaa, i know i should be revising now. but seriously, why oh why must the fire drill be during our common test week??

i'm having headache due to the HOT weather and the 45 min torture under the sun just now.

daaaaang. nothing's getting into my head..!

and i freaking haven't done my Dnt!

gaaaaah! D:

Mr Goh, please don't cari pasal with meeee. )):

hmmm, alrights. maybe i'll go to sleep right now.

tak leh angs, beb! D;

byebye! :D

0015 hours

2011-04-03T00:09:00.002+08:00

weeeew~!

today was AWESOME! kaay, i meant yesterday.,

fine, just now. arghh, whatever.

Amirah and her bro ajak me watch his performance at his school, TP.

at first i didn't want to go cause i thought i'll just end up being an outcast.

but it didn't felt that way at all!

didn't even feel awkward with her cuz. ^^

Abang Irfan's performance was AWESOME. get it? AWHHSOMME. :D

i finally got to see that side of him.

hahahah! my DnT idol! ~.~

his current hairstyle made him look hot just now. :p

hahahahahah! and seriously, I DON'T REGRET GOING TO THE CONCERT. :D

her cuz was also easy to talk to. i love those kind of peeooplee.

i love your family, lah, mirraaah!

then, after that, her dad belanja, blablabla.

THANK YOU SO MUCH, AMIRAH'S AYAH!

hahahah! that sounds weird enough.

alrights.. for now, gotta sleep. madrasah tomorrow!

:D:D:D:D:D

byebyeeees!

2135 hours

2011-03-23T21:21:00.004+08:00

Saturday.

went "moon-hunting" with Mirah! well, more to "moon-catching"..!

before that, went tengok wayang Red Riding Hood. :D

the show was awesome.

oooh, i forgot.

Friday, went out with Azra, watched I Am Number Four.

hmmm.. no comments about the show...

not really my type... /:

i prefer Red Riding Hood.

okay, continue about Saturday.

kol 630 gitu, chased after the moon to get a perfect picture of it.

from Khoo Teck Phuat to... don't know how can end up at 423.

then called Aqil to join us!

but, daaaang, mum called and forced me to go home.

waited for Aqil, talk talk, then ran back home.

and holy gosh, i was sooo lucky cause my home clock was showing 9.30 though it was already 10 pm!

hahhahahahah! safe....

then.. went to cuz's house take cab.

while texting Aqil.

and, oh, in the cab, the driver was curious why the moon was sooo huge and bright!

so i explained to him. waaah, i felt like i was already an astronomer..!

so cute lah that driver!

then, reached cuz house, bathed and all, went to bed.

well, not really. texted until midnight. had to stop cause batt low.

sheeeesssh. wtf.

it was an AWESOME night (:

hmmmm, Sunday, celebrated Qistina's birthday... blahblahblah.

go home, chiong homework.

hmmmmm, Monday? Tuesday?

Nothing much happened, i guess?

just now was CCA day, stayed back, waited for Sholihin.

NO HOMEWORK DUE TMRW, BEBEH!

awesome! slacked with... Nina, Amirah softball, Haziq, Aqil, Yasser.

yeeeeaaaa. then hockey ended, slacked with Shah too.

hanging out with them is the awesomest thing that can ever happen to me!

even though i was pangseh-ed by my CLOSEFRIEND, i still got other closefriends that COME to me and NEVER leave me.

yeeeaaa, was a bit pissed off just now.

seriously, hanging out with girls is such a bother. eeeeee, MEREPEK BODOH!

wooow, this post is sooo long!

Friday need to go PTM. only 5 people don't need to bring their parents. wow.

I FREAKING FAILED FOUR SUBJECTS. hmmmm. but, oh well,

I GOT A FREAKING A2 FOR MATH! WOOOOOH!

Alhamdulillah....

alright, going off now. ngantok, beb!

byebye (:

2238 hours

2011-03-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

yo yo, whatssup whatssup?

ceiling!

hahah! lamer perh tak bloggg?

wow, so many things happened.

hmmmm. ended some craps, HAD AWESOME FUN WITH AMIRAH OSMAN.

hahahah!

when was it? wednesday? wait, tuesday..!

played "waterslides" with her. HAHAH! idiot kan?

first time doing something crazy! in school uni pulak tu..!

& ohhh, saturday sleepover at her house lah seyy!

first time sleeping over at someone's house!

LOVE YOU MAMA! <3

had a LOOONNNNGGG chat with Mirah these days.

i FINALLY found someone who's WILLING to listen and LAYAN and UNDERSTAND and TAKE my craps SERIOUSLY.

we have sooo much in common laaah!

hahahah. just now..

went to school, ternampak Zim.

he waiting for floorball girls.

takperr...

SUPPOSED to meet aqil, that basket.

sheeesh, never mind...

then, went library... blahhh

then went to eat with MIrah!

hahahah! bought packed food, makan bawah blok.

then we saw this cat. wait, BLACK cat.

it was staring at us like whaaat like tht..

then both of us freaked out and HAHAHAH!

EMERGENCY ESCAPE!

epic like shit!

HAHAHAH!

yeeeaaa, then went Mirah's house to solat and went home.. :D

then texted Zim.

aaaah, Zim! don't worry!

it's alright! my shoulder's here for you, anytime, anywhere. (:

ILY. omg, can't believe i'm still saying this here.

seee...! this is what happens when i blog!

post too long!

kaaay, i think i shall stop now.

dah malam, goosebumps. MALAM JUMAAT PULAK TU.

kaaay, goodnights world (:

2151 hours

2011-03-08T21:37:00.003+08:00

that's it. i've reached my limits.
don't know why i've stopped giving a damn shit to the world.
i've stopped giving a damn fuck about everything.
EVERYTHING.
& you know why i always look tired?
cause i'm tired of chasing you in this marathon.

mum's not home, going to sleep soon, test paper will not be signed, name's gonna be in class diary.
kaaay. it's my life. FUUUUU.
kay, bye.

1841 hours

2011-03-06T18:23:00.002+08:00

the weekend's a bit slacking.
not much homework. hmmm.
wonder what the teachers have up their sleeves for the holidays.. :B
listened to english songs recently.
it's been years since i last listened to them!
woooow! hahah!
i love JPOP. always. :D

ohmegeeesh, that reminds me. i haven't completed DnT.. :b
Mr Taaaaaan! be lenient caaan? walaaao.......
i can't stop whining during DnT lessons. haiiiisssss.

I MISS MY APS PEEPS LAH SEYYY!
neh mind, next monday going out. ^^
i miss Fiqar and Zaim the most! those horny guys.
i reaaaally miss playing soccer with them. ):
woohoo! next friday Sports Carnival, doks!
can't wait!! ^^

kaaaay, today's quite a bore.
went madrasah. bleaah.
then thanks to Teacher Nurain, my savior!
i managed to take a picture in the kindergarten classroom for my photography competition.
phhheeewww! deadline just now.
i felt so satisfied with my pic! :D
hopefully i can win! Amin!

that's all for this post.
hmmm. Mii! tomorrow lah seyyy! D:
kaay, takper.

1413 hours

2011-03-05T13:52:00.003+08:00

i'm finally free again. sweeet!
had an adventurous day yesterday! :D
waited until 1.20 for the library to open even though the lunchtime says 12 to 12.30.
then, gave up and went to canteen to slack with Bibi, Lydia and all.
then did my DnT.
then went for duty at around.. 2.30?
yeaaa. was really pissed off, don't know why.
then, after duty, met Amirah and Zainal. :D
they look sooo cute together lah seyy.
yeeeaa. oooh, before going out of school, bought the ice-cream.
the uncle seemed happy maybe because the sales were good yesterday.
HOHOH!
he gave me two HUGE scoops of ice-cream. MELELEH, DOK!
yeeeaa, then met up with Mirah and Zainal, slacked bawah block.
then, major tan popped out. and i hit my shin against the stone table.
AND IT'S BRUISED! freaking painful.
yeeeeaaaa. then, at 7 plus, wanted to go home uh.
then singgah rumah Mii jap. then her dad ajak makan sekali.
thankyousomuch lah seyy!
played with Lili and Anis too! ILOVEYOU LILI!!!!!
Anis nanti jealous uh. HAHAH.
didn't get to see Molly. sadded. ):
then, balik macam pukul 9 gitu..
then Mii sent Zainal to take me home. aaah~ they're all nice people!
thanks Mii and Zainal!!
got home, washed up and all, went online!
yeea, chat with my friend. never failed to make me smile. :D
and, yeaps, that's my adventure yesterday.

today's saturday and it's such a bore. morning, woke up by Shah's text. -.-
bukannyer nak cakap morning ke.. abeh orang dah tolong, bukannyer nak cakap thankyou.
sheeesh. pffft.
hahahah! and his ezlink picture is soooo damn cuuuute!
ohmegeeeesh.

okay, now, talk about school.
I'M SO HAPPY!
i've been passing my humans tests, like, FINALLY, GAWWD.
and i've been passing my Math toooo! WOOOHOOOO!
and i've improved on my English! good progress, yea? :D:D
ILOVEMYSELF! :D
maybe i should get hurt more so i'll strive my best. HAHAH.
okays, that's all for now.
byebye!

1239 hours

2011-02-24T12:30:00.005+08:00

wooohooo! it's e-learning day.
there's nothing to be happy about. I'D RATHER GO TO SCHOOL THEN TO DO ELEARNING!
kaaay, this week went fast.
let me recall what happened..
can't remember much...!
can only remember what happened yesterday.
hahah! yesterday had assembly talk with the lower sec.
OHMEGEESH! STAGEFRIGHT!
i was too nervous and when i looked at Nazihah, I STARTED LAUGHING.
and the whole hall laughed too.
-.-
paisehh!
oh, and after school, Shah teased me about that.
yeaa, went for DnT, then went down to the canteen and met Haziq and gang.
they played catching and it soooo reminded me of Fiqar and gang!
I MISS FIQAR LAH SEYYH!
yesterday his birthday! :D
joked with him as usual. HAHAH!
wonder how he looks like now.. hmmm.
Shuqri still looks the same! hahah!
Zaim makin mat rep ahh. kate jek sekolah bagus.. haisshh.

ohhh, the day before that, stayed back for Math remedial, then Library thingy.
and after the "rehearsal", we went for Ms-Lee's-Pencilbox-Hunt!
HAHAH! it camouflaged on the stool. -.-
Ms Lee so cute!!
but he's cuter. :b

oh, i haven't finished about yesterday. HAHAH. went back with Shol and Mir and met Umar and his friend in the bus.
so sad he went off with Syafiq, Fazli and Haziq.. ):
ohmeegoosshh. 11 more days! :D:D
LOL.

ohkaay, i'd better get started on my e-learning NOW.
byebyes!~

1745 hours

2011-02-20T17:21:00.003+08:00

oh mee geesh!
had flag day yesterday.
went with Fiz, Jason and Wei Keong.
first, went to Sembawang. thought i could see him! but.. noope.
then, went to SSC.
then, i made a conclusion. SEMBAWANG IS DESERTED.
kaaay, then took 858, stopped at Chong Pang.
hahah! got a few donators there (:
then, took 858 again, intended to go Jason's house, but tak jadi.
so in the end, we went back to school.
then while waiting with wei keong to get his bike back from travis, went to Jason's house.
then.. bleaaahh.
then.. wei keong agreed to send me back home, but dah takdir per!
kevin and kai xiang came.
soon after, gerald join them.
so they went home together. pangseh me sia! hahah! but i don't mind. (:

something unexpected happened yesterday, but don't really wanna talk about it. :b
had a long chat with Mirah! :D
i talk crap. like, seriously.
hahahah! oh, then i managed to talk to zim!
ohmegeesh! thanks ricky, for bringing us closer by being the topic to talk about!
LOL!
talked to zim just now too, even though i was having my madrasah. :b
will be chatting with him after 6. :D
kaay, why am i saying this.

just now madrasah was... fine.
everything went fast.
Aquila didn't come! what theee...
Nurain didn't come too! so i sat with Sofia and it was so awkward.
like, usually there's four of us. and now left only both of us. LOL.
sofia ate ALOT! ohmegeesh!
AND HOW CAN YOU NOT GROW FAT?!
hahah! didn't have anything much to talk about with her.
i want hear Aquila's bollywood stories again!
hahahah! oh, slacked under my block with Nad after madrasah.
and she told me HER bollywood story.
awwwww, why you guys have such sweet bollywood stories when i don't!
or.. maybe it's still in progress.
then i'll create the BEST bollywood storyline EVER!
muahahahahahahahahahah! LOL!!
kaaay, i'm so dumb.

met dad just now. LOL.
we were playing with Tako the cat!
then Tako bit my father. and my father stamped his foot just to scare the cat away. LOL.
but he meant no harm. duhhhh.
he's just playing with the cat.
then there's this couple, they showed my dad a cold stare.
i heard something like "he... the cat"
yeeaaa. my dad wanted to fight back, but i pulled my dad away.
LOL. ego, daddy!

okaaaays! going out with mum and sis!
NEW PHONE! WOOHOOO!
byebyeeess!

p/s i joined my madrasah's photography competition! first prize $300 dok!! the theme is "my fond memories in al-muttaqin." :D:D
wish me luck!!!!

2042 hours

2011-02-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

i'm baaaaack!
went to Mirah's house just nowwww!
her house so nice lah seyy!
and oh! played with her CUTE PETS! Anis, Lili the cats and MOLLY THE LITTLE HAMMY!
HAH! it rhymes! :B
I LOVE LILI LAH SEEYY! soooo cute and FAT!
and OLD. lol.
zainal was there. theeeen Mirah's daddy came home.
and theeen he came.
HAHAH!
so sweet lah he!
then went back with him.
ILOVEYOU!

Mii! i finally know how you feel!
biler nampak dier jek, kau terdiam. it happened to me too!
aaaah! and he's like, soo sweet to you lah.
ohmaaaaaaiii.

kaaay. i basically wasted HALF my day sleeping. Zzz!
the doctor says sleep when you feel like it.
so, yea, i did. at first, i woke up at 10.30.
washed up, ate breakfast and all and watched Power Rangers and Beyblade.
theeen halfway through Spongebob, i went back to sleep. HAHAH.
pathetic much! and woke up at 1.30!
-.-

okaaay. the end. byebyes!

Mii! I'll NEVER let him go! aaaaah! yeeesss! IPROMISE!

1103 HOURS

2011-02-10T10:52:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahahah!
let's start this post with a laughter.
just now was soo paisey laah!
confirm later all the teachers ask "eh, i thought i saw her just now?"
ohh, adding on to it, confirm mrs cheah say "but she don't look sick leh"
hahahah! lol, i'm really sick, f.y.i.
ohh. and yeaa, the paisey part.
HOHOH! ms xu asked me to find qi fang at that time, and it was urgent.
didn't want to walk behind the teachers, so i took a short cut.
and then i became the centre of attraction. wtf. -.-
they were announcing the OP Idol finalists when my classmates started laughing at me.
LOL, to layan them, i wave ah.
HAHAHAHAH! now come to think of it, PAIISEEEY PEERRRH?!?!?!!!
dah lah tak datang kelas pulak tuu!
but nasib baik i came for the meeting seyy.
kalau tak, saper nak uruskan?
ms xu was all sooo panicky just now.
idiot posters.. need to redo!
or else i can go home and i didn't have to embarrass myself in front of the whole school seehhh!
PAISEY, DOK!

kaay, i'm alone at home now.
and my condition got worse ever since i got home.
Mirah! I can't type properly laah sey! ):

daddy picked me up just now and the GO staff had to tolerate my nonsense.
heh, sorry. :b
"tolerate" is too big of a word for my situation though.
lol.

woow, just an hour in school and i can post this much!
hahahahah!
confirm tomorrow kena hentam by classmates and teachers one.
especially mrs cheah. and ms lee! D:
kay, shall go and REST.
shall stop thinking about all these things!
kaay, next stop, TUMBLRRRR!

2104 hours

2011-02-09T19:45:00.002+08:00

woow, how long have i not been blogging, i wonder?
busy uh..
i'm sooo sick! it feels like i'm in a daze ~.~
i can't even control my hands and fingers properly..
shhheeeesh.
yesterday was FUN. went to SDC after school.
and i was already starting to feel giddy at that time. aww, Ms Xu so sweet!
since i can't even stand properly, i asked her if i could hold her hand.
and she let me (:
and she bought water for me. ILOVEYOUMSXU!

theenn asked daddy to pick me up cus tak boleh tahan already.
but he was busy. sooo, almost had to go home alone.
but thank God! He didn't let me suffer alone!
i texted Sholihin and we took 811 together.
and then, met Car, so went back to yck with her. :D

didn't go to school just now.
2 days MC (:
enough time to sleeeep all i want :b
but tomorrow planning to go for the Sarawak trip meeting in the morning.
at least i can meet him (:
kaaay, i'm gonna do my work now.
byeees~

2117 hours

2011-02-04T20:56:00.002+08:00

had a great day today! met daddy!!
went to mustafa center with daddy and kakak! :D
bought USB and OMG, CADBURY the.. the.. bubbly mint one!
watching Shaolin Soccer now.
i'll never get bored of it no matter how many times i've watched it!
HAHAHAHAH!

"what are you doing?"
"Playing soccer!"
"But the ball is over there!"

LOL!!
kaaay. you know what? when i'm angry, i tend to eat alot.
when i'm sad, i tend to eat alot.
when i'm happy, i'm too busy to even care about my mealtimes.
so, make me angry.
HOHOH.
fuck. i fucking hate being angry.
but it's alright because i love the way it hurts.
i love the way it hurts.
HELL NO.
aitess.
kthanksbye (:

Since then the seasons have been passing by as always
But there’s one thing I can’t forget
The minus 100 degree painful memories you left behind quietly in the end
- minus 100 do no koi; Kanjani8

2307 hours

2011-02-02T21:50:00.004+08:00

these few days were grrreaaat!
no homework maan! (racist much. hari raya, we got one whole plate of homework.)
oh well, that's not the problem here. (:
the only great memories i had these few days were the awesome times with Shol and Mirah. (:
going to school with shol is the best thing ever!
shol's a suuppper great brother. :D

Chinese New Year celebrations weren't that exciting.
just like previous years..
hmmm.
there was no drama and choir.. whuuuaaat.
nothing much to blog about, though LOTS of things happen.
don't wanna talk about it here cause i don't wanna accuse someone of spreading rumours about my posts. (:

yesterday, went back with shol.
shol so sweet lah!
if only he's like that too! hmpf.
like it will EVER happen. /:
okiess. gonna watch Control now! YOKO IS SO HAWWT~! :D
byebye!

2228 hours

2011-01-29T22:22:00.003+08:00

君と会ってUp ↑ Down↓ 読み取れない
言葉　態度天気予報くらいに曖昧戦略もない

まさに心はローリング・コースター!

Since I met you, it’s been up and down.
I couldn’t read your words or your attitude,
and you're as unpredictable as the weather. I don't have a strategy.
Surely, my heart is like a rolling coaster!

- Rolling Coaster, Kanjani8

1414 hours

2011-01-29T14:00:00.002+08:00

thought it was almost ending.
thought it's about to end soon.
thought it's supposed to end.
but i can't. i just caaaaan't. because why? you know why (:

yesterday had been a VERRRY busy day for me.
busy and emotional. hoho.
had a date with Nazihah. :D and a loong talk with Mirah.
not really long though. Mum and grandma's friend interrupted..
now, things on my plate - Sarawak trip and Library assembly talks.
and will be busy with council Valentine's Day project.
hmmmm.

i guess someone read my messages.
it's either that or i forgot that i've actually read it. O.O
i'm turning crazy.like, seriously.
with homework and all.
oh, wait, I'VE COMPLETED MY MATH HOMEWORK!
i'm so proud of myself. ^^
okaaaay.
kthanksbye. (:

These hands that were connected by chance,
hey, look, they're melting together!
We will always be wishing for
incessantly overflowing love.
- Wonderful World, Kanjani8

2144 hours

2011-01-26T21:23:00.002+08:00

today started well and ended well!
well, i can say it ended GREAT.
morning, got to see him. going home, got to see him.
tomorrow can see Zim agaaain! but he's.. hmmm.

didn't go to school with brother today.
i was late, behind routine!
and, yeah. came late, like around 6.45?
didn't text him at all. bleahh.
tomorrow maybe going to school with brother!
ahhh, i love you, Shol! you're the best brother EVAAA.

watched softball match just now while doing DnT.
was suuper distracted.
but managed to complete my problem situation and situation analysis! :D
the guys did great! though we lost..
played catch ball with Hariz for a while.
and i almost wanted to join softball.
HAHAH.

went back with Shol, Lydia and Amirah.
got to know a deep dark secret of Shol's.
haiiyyyoooo! Shol! why you do that??
hmmm, okaaaay. tomorrow.. wait. is it DnT or POA extra class??
lol, anyway, tmrw having POA and Math test.
and.. congrats Mai, ALL THE BOOKS ARE UNDER YOUR TABLE!

got so many things on my hands right now..
aaaaarghhhh.
kaaay, i'm gonna start on my powerpoint editing now.
idiot Shol, didn't have the time to edit it!
hahah! poor you.

byebyees!

白くなって消えたのは
「愛してる」の言葉かな
僕はそっとポケットに
手を入れてまた歩き出す

What turned white and disappeared was the phrase "I love you"
I quietly put my hands in my pockets and start walking again

- Snow White, Kanjani8

2042 hours

2011-01-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

today's a baad day lah sehh.
hate Tuesdays. like, seriously.
but looking forward to tomorrow!
for some unknown reasons. lol.
had a reaaally bad day but something cheered me up on the bus.
hahahah!
a joke a girl shared with her grandpa!

ader 10 ikan dalam fishtank. 7 mati, tinggal beraper ikan?

hahahah!
kaaay, i really need K8 entertainment now.
feel like plucking my hair off in one grab.
daaang, super stressed.
AND TIRED. i'm tired of all these crap already lah sehh.
stop it caan?
kaaay, going to do something useful now.
byess~

Apakah silap dan salahku
Apakah dia yang dicari
Apa yang harus ku lakukan
Untuk kembali di sisimu

Di manakah hilangnya cinta
Yang membara di dalam jiwa
Apakah terpisah akhirnya
Bila ku sunyi ku sendiri

- Ku Sendiri by Aliff Aziz

LONER

2011-01-24T19:33:00.003+08:00

2000 hours

today was another great day!
morning didn't start off that well..
but day ended well.
well, so far everything's okay.
don't know what will happen before the day ends.
hmmm. anything could happen.
like just now, i met Atiqah the twins.
i was listening to ichibyou kiss then.
hahah, ironic. a happy song when i heard a sad news.
her dad passed away today. my condolences to you.
inalillah..
he was healthy when i last saw him..
see? anything can happen..
came home and uncle was here!
treat me and my bro to dinner at Mr Teh Tarik!
ate prata chocolate.
cousin studied math with uncle while both of us ate.
hohoho.
i love my uncle! ((:
had a great talk with uncle!
uurrrgghhh, i miss my dad!!!
hmmm..
did homework in school just now.
as usual, FOREVER ALONE.
HOHOHO. hahah!

i love ichibyou kiss dance steps!
and i love baby baby SCP version.
IT'S AWEESOMMEE.
had a "K8" night yesterday.
watched HSJ arigatou thrice too. so, not purely K8 night.
HAHAH.
I WANT WATCH MORE SUBBED JANIBEN AND CAN!JANI !!!!
AND KANPANI TOOO! AAARRGGGHHH.
SOMEONE! GO AND SUB HONJANI!!!

ohkaay, fangirling again. sheesh.
there might be math remedial tomorrow, so, gonna stay back even later.
hmmmm.
unless someone wants to go home with meee (:
okaaay. hmmmm.
that's all for now. hoho, gonna do SB powerpoint! :D
byebyessss

2118 hours

2011-01-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i update my blog sehh!
yeaaps, suuper busy.
i've been restraining myself to use the comp.
hmm, yeaps yeaps.
looottts of things happened.
but i'm glad for THIS WHOLE WEEK my name wasn't in class diary!!
*clap clap*
i've been super rebellious nowadays.
i have no absolute idea why.
Thurs was the first time i went back with zim.
hmm. it was the most memorable day ((:
Friday, went back with him too! kaaay.
i'm glad i made so many new friends this year. ^^
yesterday was super chaotic.
for the first time in two years, i actually blew out on someone close to me.
had problem with zim. mirah had problem too.
i have problem, she has problem.
she help me, i help her.
goosssh, are we like, twins?
hahah! but everything's settled now.
zim texted me just now when he was a bit busy.
and when i asked him to text me when he's free, sampai sekarang pon tak text.
hmmphh..
daily routine lah kot..
two more weeks! <3

kaay, will be having two tests tomorrow.
SS and Phy. SS no need to study, but haven't started studying for Physics!
aargh. daaang.
ZIM! TEXT MEEE! uurrrghh.
when i expected you to text, i got someone else's text instead.
what is this, man? hmmm. it's okay, i'll wait (:
sis is effing rude again. effing bitch. wtf.
dad is an idiot. because of him i can't get my effing pocket money.
FUUUUUUUUUU.
okay, whatever. i'm so damn pissed off now.
but i'll just try to smile as usual. hmm. got used to it alr. (:

whatever happens, i still love you. mark my words. i don't want you to slip off my hands just like that.

君の人生は誰のもの？

who does your lilfe belong to?

-Musekinin Hero, Kanjani8

iamstressed

2011-01-15T17:08:00.002+08:00

1714 hours

fuuhhhyooooh.
SEC FOUR LIFE SUCK. TO THE MAX.
had reeeeeaaalllly bad days/weeks for the first two weeks of school that had just passed.
name was written down in the class diary 4 times in two weeks.
FOUR TIMES!
idiot.. never had that lot before.
sec four life is reaalllly hard. oh God, please help me through my journey in sec four!
Amin..
don't have much homework this weekend.
thank God!
but have to start on my DnT coursework.
DnT is sooo fun ((:
ohh, yeahh. there's POA homework too..
sheeeeeshhh..
no more time to watch japanese dramas.. /:
sadded..
well, here's already a real life drama in school, so why bother? ;p
okayy, gonna do my homework now.
byebye! :D

i've became so hardworking these days! :D

school!

2011-01-03T13:43:00.002+08:00

1403 hours

okaay. stuck at home doing math.
wanted to do an Uchi drawing yesterday, but it ended up looking like some random guy on the streets.
well, more to an anime. -.-
waiting for my MP3 to finish charging before continuing my homework.
did math yesterday too, with koko crunch by my side and coffee on the table.
it really felt like i was in a Japanese house.
cuz i sat on the floor and did my work on the coffee table.
oh wait, i forgot a point.
i sat on the reeeaallly comfortable cushion. ^^
anndd okaaay, i'm talking to a random guy now on facebook.
i have no idea who is he, but i know he's Hazim's friend.
hmmmm.
tsssk, underaged people..

there's school tomorrow and i still have yet to complete my homework!
oh, wait, i have to give credits to these people for saving my smelly ass.

thank you so much, Ricky, for the malay papers!!! and thank you Yong Ting for POA!!! :D:D
my life saviors. :D:D

kaaay, now i feel like drawing Maru after what my sister told me.
at Spirits!!! concert, first con after Uchi was suspended, a fan was holding an uchiwa saying
"Maru should be the one gone, cause nobody needs him." or something like that.
and he replied, "Sorry."
oh gosssh, i fell in love with Maru straight away.
i love him so muccchhh! Maru is so damn freaking AWESOME!
no wonder there's even male eighters who likes him ^^

okaay, back to the point. tomorrow there's fllaaaaag! yeeaaay!
but i'm still nervous.
i had a nightmare about it.. -.-
soooo, see you tomorrow! :D:D
byebye!

don't worry, i love you more than i love K8. :D 4 more days!!

rotting.

2011-01-01T17:46:00.002+08:00

1756 hours

it's the first day of the year and i'm feeling so fucked up.
i'm super pissed off.
PISSED OFF.
literally.

haiiiss.. i've still not done my Math and Malay homework.
fuck luuh.
i'm sorry for my coarse language.

got scolded by mum. ;(
today is a reeeaallly dull day.
there's only my mum, my sis and i.
home alone.
and the door's closed, making the whole house dark.
psssf.

work yesterday was uber fuuunn!
did stock counting.
and i dropped the auditor's scientific calculator. -.-
and he gave me the solar one instead. -__-
well, my sister's case was worse!
she dropped a box onto the auditor's shoulders.
LOL.
blame him for having that look on his face!
tsscchh.
they need help on Monday, too.
i did think of helping, but.. i'm afraid i'll be too tired.
Tuesday's gonna be a tiring day too...!
okay, wanna watch johnny's countdown on youtube.
kaythanksbye. :D

let me sleep!!!

2010-12-29T06:13:00.002+08:00

0618 hours

it's freaking six in the morning but i'm not sleeping.
FML.
stupid chest pain.
started at 1.50, and still having it till now.
and whyyy, oh whhy, must both my teeth grow at this time?!
it's like, TRIPLE THE PAIN.
aaaaarrrgghhhh!!!!!!!!!!
almost wanted to go hospital just now.
I CAN'T FREAKING TAKE THESE CHEST PAINS ANYMOREEEEE!
this is the worst of the worst.
my grandma says it's because i bathe late at night last night.
and washed my hair. in the cold weather.
ok, fine. i'm done with bathing at night.
I'M NEVER GONNA BATHE AT NIGHT NO MATTER HOW STICKY I AM.
firetruck laaaah.
had a suuuper long day yesterday, and now.
I CAN'T FREAKING SLEEP.
okay, i guess i'm going to watch my drama now.
BYEBYE.

Arigatou~ 1912 hours

2010-12-27T18:58:00.003+08:00

NOTE: this post has nothing much. just severe fangirling for Hey!Say!JUMP.

guess i just have to post this.
though the MV is quite.. err..
and the meanings of the song doesn't make sense at all, i love the meaning behind it.
it means something like "Thank You, anywhere you are in the world".

and here goes my fangirling.
OMG! MORIMOTO IS SO HAAWT. heh, same age as me, man!
and of course, Yamada, DAIKI!, Yuuto, Chinen, and TAKAKI!!
HAHAH! i tend to like Hey!Say!7 more huh. but Daiki belong to Hey!Say!BEST and i still like him ^^
i'm starting to love Hey!Say!JUMP agaaaiiinn!!!

Hey!Say!JUMP -Arigatou Sekai no Doko ni Itemo MV

freaking freak

2010-12-26T15:32:00.000+08:00

1612 hours

WHAT A DAY.
WHAT A LUCK.
-.-

lol, Jason. i just realized i haven't done my glog.
and i freaking lost my thumbdrive.
i wonder what will happen.. ToT

today's reeeaaallly not my day.
pshff.
did Physics quiz two.
first attempt, didnt even complete the whole thing.
second attempt, glad i passed.
they said i had SIXTY minutes to complete it, but i only got THIRTY minutes!
THIRTY FREAKING MINUTES TO DO THE 62 FREAKING QUESTIONS.
and i'm still freaking pissed by the fact that my thumbdrive went MIA at a freaking crucial time.
freak.
and it's already freaking four in the evening but he still haven't texted me.
i'm freaking pissed. but, oh well.

GORI GORI by Kanjani8 ;

逆境も　理不尽も　屈辱も　暗闇も失恋も　残念も　台風も
Gyakkyou mo. Rifujin mo. Kutujyoku mo. Kurayami mo. Shitsuren mo. Zannen mo. Taifuu mo.

Adversity too, also Unreasonableness, also humiliation, also darkness, even [unrequited love/broken heart], even disappointment, even typhoons

まとめてかかって来い
Motomete kakatte koi

Collect it all, bring it all together at once.

1506 hours

2010-12-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm freaking bored here at home.
i'm still not doing my homework.
starting on my mother tongue soon.
going to complete Physics by today.
starting my Math.. maybe the day after tomorrow.
or the day after that. ;b
or the day after that. oh wait, that'll be on Tuesday.
theeen, the day AFTER that. ;D
i'm glad school starts on Tuesday, sooo.. 10 more days! :D

my Christmas fic is finally done.
but needs to be edited. soo, once it's done, i'll post it on my livejournal!
:D:D

i'm soooo loving my new skin. get used to it, aites?
byebye~!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

mewwy christmas!

2010-12-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

2334 HOURS

ohhkaaay.
today's unexpectedly a fun and memorable day for me.
even though i didn't go out.
heh.

i guess i have more than two readers, huh?
hahah. but i'm not that desperate to have readers.
i mean, i don't even want to have readers like you guys.
read for the wrong reason. and then go around gossiping.
tsk, you think i care? i don't give a fucking damn shit lah eh.
and you're thinking why am i posting this even though i don't give a damn?
well, i'm just letting you know that you can do a whole lot of shit behind my back.
cause I DON'T CARE.
but you know what? i pity you guys. go and get a life luh.
get that? GET A LIFE. ASSHOLES.

A FEW MORE MINUTES TO CHRISTMAS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!! :D:D:D

TGIF.

2010-12-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

1449 hours

weeeets. today's Friday!
TGIF!
hopefully.. seeing him on Monday.
insyaAllah.. Amin.. heh
seeing him on Tuesday too!
IF he wants to meet me.
hmmm.

seeing my friends on Tuesday!
my COUNCIL friends, i mean.
having council meeting cum sec 4 farewell till 10 in the night.
my sis' blabbering crap.
NOT LISTENING.
HAH! both my earpieces are stuck in my ear.
can't hear anything else except the song i'm listening to. (DUHHH)

did Physics quiz one just now.
THE FONT'S SUPER DAMN SMALL, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO READ IN 5 SEC AND ANSWER WITHIN A MINUTE?!
and. I AM SOOO NOT GONNA DO THE QUIZ TWO!
i'm gonna do it some other time, though it's ending in 6 days.
TSK, WHO CARES?

i'm sick. cuz i miss him too much. and to fill up that space in my heart, I DID MY HOMEWORK!

ZUKKOKE OTOKOMICHI
ズッコケ男道

school starts late bebeh!

2010-12-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

2049 hours

WWOOOOH WEEEETS!
SCHOOL STARTS ON TUESDAY!
weeeets!
one more day to procrastinate, bebeh!
but, but. guess what, guess what??
i've started on my homework!
i've COMPLETED my chemistry homework!!
*claps, applause*

the electrical shutdown at my block made me start on my homework.
just when i was about to do my Math, a visitor came.
and then i lost my mood to start on it when she went off.
sooo, achievement for today - A FINISHED WRITTEN HOMEWORK!

ok, bye.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THOSE CELEBRATING IT!

me in johor~

2010-12-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

alrights.
this is my first time doing this.
I'M IN JOHOOORRR (((:
omgomgomg.
cool right?!
didn't know there's internet here at my aunt's house.
wonder whose one is it.. O.o
i sooo wanna go back home RIGHT NOW.
i miss him like hell.
SERIOUSSSLLLYYY!!
aaaaaaahhhhh!!!
okok, shhhhhhh..
it's like.. 1.33 am right now..
and i'm still fresh awake.
cuz why? i miss him too much.
iiieeeesssh.
i've never felt this way my whole life. except now, that is.
hmmm..
this is ssooo cool.
now we dont have to go all the way to JUSCO!
hahah! *but is this free?!
ok, alright, i guess i'm logging off now. byebye~!

bye peeps~

2010-12-18T12:16:00.000+08:00

1224 hours

weeeets~!
going Johor later!
BY TRAIN! it's been a long time since i last took it!
it's been decades!
(gosh, the banglas down there are seriously noisy..!)
waiting for mummy to come home with luch (:
man, i love my mother. :D:D
weeks passed by.. and i still haven't started on my homework.
HA! have you? ;p

hmm. not much to blog for now.
i'm alone at home. AGAIN.
it's okay, hope this is gonna be my last time. (yeah, AS IF)
I MISS WATCHING EITO VARIETY SHOWS.
maannn, someone, sub it, quick!
i miss eito.. ):
oooh! it's 17 degree celcius now!
no wonder it's soo cold!
though it's not raining.
OOH! is it winter?!?!
HAHAH. it's 10 degree celcius in Japan now.
cool right?
only 7 degree celcius difference.
AHEM. 7. heh.
okay. bye.
;p

kuaaayyyy teeeooooowww!!!

2010-12-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

1537 HOURS

had an awesome day out yesterday!
went to Sentosa with Hazim, Amirah and Zainal ((:
walked around Sentosa, took the busses, the trams and the monorails.
conclusion.
Sentosa has nothing much.

and now, i'm alone at home
again.
and i'm hungry to the max.
mummy haven't come home.
sayang sounded busy, so i don't wanna text him.
Mirah use prepaid, i don't wanna waste her money..
sooo.. i'm left with no one else.
well, at least Ricky's texting me.
hahah, please don't get jealous, sayang.
he has the same problem as me.
ooh, i have a qoute.
i got this from Abigail's status on facebook.
"Trust is like paper. Once it's crumpled, you can never straighten it again."
yeah, i totally agree with that.

okay, i guess this should end here now.
i still have yet to touch on my homework.
CAN MY MUM JUST GROUND ME AND FORCE ME TO START ON MY HOMEWORK?!
lol, weird request, huh?
ok, its now 1533 and my mummy's still not back yet.
called her just now.
she said she's still at work!
she's still laughing woth her friends.
damn it.
you have a starving daughter here!
hello??
-_-
guess i should just fry an egg.
mummy ask me go buy myself but i don't wanna go out!!!
i did the housework already, kaaaaay!
now i want my lunch!
me want lunch, me want lunch!
ME VERY HUNGRY!
i think i just go buy uh..
but me want the black pepper kuay teow from np's foodcourt!!!!
okok, alright.
byebye~!

asshole.

2010-12-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

1811 hours

okay. fine. it's over between us. maybe you didn't notice. oh, or maybe you did.
my heart's totally shattered now.
i guess that's what you really want right?
you took me for granted. i only exist when you need me.
and those words; they're just for my entertainment right?
well, if you don't know, this is how i've been feeling towards you. and your gang.
yeah, it's yours now. not mine anymore, right?
well, yeah, i know i'm going a lil bit overboard right now.
but i hope you know why i'm saying all these.
if you don't want me anymore, then STOP BEING NICE TO ME.
assholes.

okay okay.
now, to my post.
thanks, Jason for the suggestion!
I'll take that into consideration!
"Love In The Bus Stop" huh? ^^
i'm working on my fanfic already ((:
it's going quite well, now that i have a title.
wait for it, alright? ;b

i'm suupppeerr bored at home.
was all alone just now.
but now my grandma's home.
so, not that lonely anymore..
my friends are all out with their family..
can i have a family outing too?
it's been for what it seems like forever since i last had a family outing!!
and, yeah, i just realized that.
ll-_-

i'm so glad i met friends like Amirah, Firdaus, Sholihin and not forgetting, Hazzziiimmm! ;b
they're the nicest friends ever!
i love them oh-so-much!
outings with them had always been enjoyable!
but too bad tomorrow Fir and Zim won't be able to come for the BBQ.
i don't feel like going, too.
but, oh well.
i'm gonna miss out some fun if i don't come! ^^
most of the Sec Ones can't come..
so, maybe it's like.. NC14?
hahah!
alright, this post is long enough.
going to continue on my fic!
byebye~!

Christmas fic, here i come!

2010-12-11T17:02:00.001+08:00

1720 hours

yo Jason!
i read your blog.
you're sick??
get well soon, yeah? :D:D
it's been a bit rainy these days..
make sure you drink lots of water and rest well!
(:(:

omg, i'm listening to Cherish by NEWS.
aaah, how nostalgic!
during those times i only listened to NEWS and thought Kanjani8 is just a bunch of idiots..
i miss those times man!
but NEWS' latest single... suck.
ummm, not really suck, but it's just that it's.. not my type anymore.
hahah!
NEWS and K8 live in two different world.
well, yeah, obvious, one is from Tokyo, one is from Osaka.
wonder how Ryo managed to be in both groups..
now that Uchi's not alive.. T_T

kkk, now to my post.
I AM BORED AT HOME.
and what do i do at home?
SLACK.
i'm planning to start my homework next week.
but i don't think i have enough time to revise all my work.
wonder how my sis was able to take it all so lightly and yet score so well!
iiieeessssh!
seriously, i'm so jealous of her.
i seriously have to start taking my work seriously now.
I HAVE TO START PAYING ATTENTION IN CLASSES!
I HAVE TO STOP SLEEPING DURING LESSONS!
OMMMMMMM.... 6(=o=)9

hmmmm.. now i have nothing to talk about.
i'm starting my Christmas fic!
oh wait, i mean, RESTARTING.
heh. yeah, my previous story suck.
sooo.. hmmm.. what would the title be?
just like the Channel 8 show "Love In The Cab",
maybe it could be "Love Over The Counter"?
hmmm.. OhYass? RyoUchi? aaah! RyoUchi it will be! :D:D
just wait for it!
matte ne~ ^^

weeeeets!

2010-12-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

1232 hours

yo, yo, whatssup whatssup.
let me make this clear.
I AM BORED TO DEATH HERE AT HOME.
but at least he calls me everyday ;b
except yesterday.
cuz he was kinda busy.. sadded.
aaaahhh.. miss him soso much!
what the heck..

i've been watching Channel NewsAsia nowadays.
omg, seriously, 1 hour of watching that channel is worth 2 days' newspaper!
but sadly, the news repeats every hour
only difference was that it was a different presenter.
iiieeesssshh.
OKTO - there's nothing much.
nothing at all, i can say.
oh, and ohhh
guess what, guess what?
I HAVEN'T STARTED ON MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!
"-_-
i seriously don't have the mood to..
i mean, the teachers won't collect when school reopens, so, why bother?
but, yeah, i'm starting on my revision rreeeeaaaalll sooooon!
well, yeah, I HAVE TO!
especially my math..
tsssskk..
wonder what's so great about math, no offense.
i guess i'm gonna watch detective conan first!
byebye!~

1827 ((:

1400 hours!

2010-12-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

i've not been updating my blog regularly, huh..
heh, quite busy nowadays.
busy with what??
hmmmmmm.. ((;

went out with dearest Sarawak peeps yesterday!
omg, sooo many things happened, mannn..
^^
yesterday was the best day of my life so far.
went to.. marina leisureplex WITH THE GUIDE OF MY OLD-SCHOOL MAP.
we literally walked in circles.
ahahh!!
watched Rapunzel.
IT WAS SUPER CUTE MANN!!
:D:D:D
thhheeeen went to Orchard!
went to Far East and walked around.
the went back home by bus.
yeah, BY BUS.
stood all the way to Yishun.
though it was tiring, it was sure suuuppper FUN!

going out tomorrow too!
with.... (:
gonna watch soccer match on Friday!
well, hopefully i'll not be lazy.
iiieeesssshh!
okays, gonna meet hwee ling for project now ((:
byebye ((:

DORON!

i love aunty margeret! (aunt maggie!)

2010-12-03T20:36:00.001+08:00

2114 hours

i'm baaack bebeh!
woooow!
SARAWAK TRIP WAS AWWWEEEESSSSOOOMMMMEEE!!!!!!!
DAMN, IT WAS THE BEST I SWEAR!
i'm still in shock, actually.
tsk, my aunt and grandma took me from the airport and immediately went off.
i still cant get used to the condition here in Singapore.
tsssssk.
photos in my facebook! ((:

first day.
i cant really remember..
all i could remember was sitting on a plane with Jasmine and a friendly stranger.
he and i talked a lot about the Poly and working life.
he used to be a marine engineer, and now he's a product manager.
the flight was awesome.
we did a detour to Sibu because of Kuching's bad weather.
and i remembered i really needed the toilet that time, but the queue goes all the way to the entrance.
the irony was that i was sitting close to the toilet!

second day.
went to Cheshire Home.
woow, it really opened my eyes.
the residents there were mostly wheelchair-bounded.
though they can't do much in their life, they still lived their life to the fullest and i could see that.
they were all cheerful with full of hopes, not giving up on life.
i walked with the wheelchair-bound person called Ah Bui.
he only talked about going to the market to buy orange, rice, shoes and all.
but he said he hated the market smell.
cause it smells of curry!
hahah!
he was soo cute.
i heard he's about 20 years old and he likes being patted.
after that, went to Cat Museum! ((:
nope, not alive cats.
just some posters and statues.

third day.
went to the Anah Rais Bidayuh School.
or also known as St Phillips school.
it's a Christian school.
hmmm. made quite a number of friends there.
((:
played the games the School Group organized.
WHACKO!
it was a really nice game to play with them. ((:
ohhh, before that, we went to the long house.
a reeeaaal one.
it was cool, but it didnt really surprise me.

fourth day.
went to Salvation Army.
it's an orphanage.
not really fun over there, cause most of the children there went back home to their relatives'.
sooo, there were only abouuutt.. 9 kids?
yeah, around there.
we played hunter fire and earthquake and all..
blah blah blah.
it was fun.

fifth day.
WORST DAY EVER.
we had to wake up suuuppper early to get ready to go back home.. ))))))):
everything went smooth.
hmmm, nothing much happened today.
just that when i reach home, my sis and my mum not here, my bro and younger sis went Johor.
sad.
I'M SO DAMN FREAKING LONELY.
CAN I GO BACK TO SARAWAK??

damn it.
i really feel like going out of my house right now and go back to the airport.
AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!

okay, i guess this post is long enough..
going off now!
byebye!~

2137 hours

2010-11-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON THE GAME TILL THE BUZZER SOUNDS.

never give up on a game before it ends; that's what i learnt from watching Buzzer Beat.
yeaps, I WON'T.
you started the game, i'll end it.
i won't be defeated again, i promise.
i won't be weak like how i used to be.
just like the theme of Buzzer Beat "Love makes me strong".
and yes, it does.
i'm not gonna lose anymore.

BRING IT ON.

1424 hours

2010-11-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

hahah!
jasssooonnnnn!
Eito is just a bunch of cute idiots whom i idolize.
there's no chance of me MARRYING them.
so i don't really care on THAT part.. you know..
heh, so.. i can safely say that the conference guy is cuter than Eito.
but, nah.. i'm not going for him.
hahah!
but he's cute.
cuter than Eito. :b
but no, i'm not in love with him.
hahah!!

i've started watching Buzzer Beat again!!
hahah, now i know why i stopped watching last time..
that's because VEOH SUCK.
urggghhh.
annoying web player..
yeah, now i'm stuck at episode 3.
and that's ALL BECAUSE OF VEOH AND MY SUCKY INTERNET CONNECTION!!
aaarrrrrghghghghghghhhhhh!
-_-
the theme song..
somehow reminded me of the past.
it's the feeling again, ahh, how i hate it.
the UNKNOWN feeling.. )):
haisssshh..
ohhh well..
anyway, i'm still gonna try my best with VEOH and start watching it!
byebye!

さよならシャーズワン。

100th POST!

2010-11-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

1357 hours

ohh, yeay, it's the hundredth post. -.-
i don't have anything special for this post..
feeling quite down nowadays..
sheeesh, being rejected badly, that's what i hate the most.
being rejected by my closest friend,
THAT'S EVEN WORSE.
tssk.
i hate being looked up upon when they're in need
and then leave me just like that when they're happy.
tsssk, WHAT A BITCH.
oh, yeay, i'm finally using that word. -.-
yes, i got used to that word ever since that thing happened.
though until now, i'm still not clear what the hell happened.
AND NO ONE ELSE HAS TO KNOW IT.
so DON'T EVER ask me about this thing.
i just need to express it out, okay.
something i've been holding on to.
once it's been done, i'll NEVER forget it.
unless the whole story is being explained laah..

okay, don't mind that anymore.
i mean, the thing that happened a long time ago.
i can't think straight anymore..
i don't have the physical and emotional strength to think about it anymore.
if you know you're going to hurt me over and over again,
just, leave me alone, alright.
i'm not worth anything in your life.
i mean, i just exist when you need me.
and when you're happy, you forget me.
do you know how sad it is?
get a life, dude.
oh, wait. i should say that to myself.
i have to get a life.
I DON'T LIVE TO PLEASE YOU.
it's always about YOU.
it's you, you and YOU.
i hate you.

wooow, that's so dramatic!! ^^
hahah!
now i have an idea for my fanfic!
suhhweeets!

i love the recent weather.
it's so nice~
i hope it's gonna be sunny next Tuesday!
cuz we're having a reunion!
O_O
dangg, i'm getting retarded.
again.
heh :b
and knowing that conference guy..
he really changed my current life.
heh.
now with him on my mind, i can't choose between two!
i did say "i hope i can meet him again.. oh, no, that would just make the situation worse"
and, indeed, it did.
but i hope i can meet him again.
so i have the chance to talk to him.
and tell him i just want to be friends.
((:
damn, that conference guy is cute!
but he's handsome. ;b

oookaaay, this post is long enough.
so much for my 100th post, huh..
aites, hear from me soon! :D:D
my dramatic life..

私の劇的な人生
i hope it's the right thing! hahah!

1417 hours

2010-11-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

ohhkaaay.
i've decided to go for him instead of the conference guy.
heh, since there's a chance..
why not grab it? ((:
but dude.. can you reply your sms faster?
shheeeesh..

blushed too much yesterday and the day before.
the day before, because of the conference guy.
yesterday, because of him.
QI FANG and SITI AMIRAH really made me blushed ALOT yesterday!
hahah!
friendship bonded because of him!
heh!

i've just realised, when i feel tensed, i tend to have stomach ache.
and it'll only get worse unless i close my eyes and relax my mind.
it hurts like damn hell!
i thought i was having food poisoning or something!
hahah!

ohh, and we've started practicing our dikir barat!
weets~!
it's cool, man!
i'm startin' to like it! ^^
looking forward to Tuesday, guys! ((;

that's the end of this post. FULLSTOP. heh
byebye~!

I HATE BEING TAKEN FOR GRANTED, ASS.

1424 hours

2010-11-18T14:07:00.000+08:00

i got superh retarded yesterday.
lol..
okayy, shall stop this thing about this guy..
haisss..
i don't think we're even going anywhere.
so, now, i'm gonna start with my Sarawak trip thingy! ^^
we're doing dikir barat, bebeh!
heh, it's supposed to be cancelled, but.. oh well..
((:

i guess that's all i have to say for today!
byebye, yows!

I wish to the sky, give me that winter one more time, with you…
I wish for snow
wish for snow wish for snow
- Yuuki wo Kudasai

1530 HOURS

2010-11-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

urghhh..
this is super damn annoying.
whenever i think of you or look at your facebook page,
I GET A STOMACH ACHE!
it hurts, seriously..
kecut perut aku.. /:
haiissszxzxz...
hope you'll confirm me as friend soon!!
cause i wanna ask you about your walking problem.
LOLOL!

okay, whatever..
i need to start on my Christmas fic!
or, at least, MY HOMEWORK.
been busy with Sarawak meetings and MAC..
now that MAC's done, need to deal with sarawak trip projects..
shheeeesh..

OMG.
was talking to nasrul on facebook.
HE SAID HE TOLD THE CONFERENCE GUY I ADDED HIM, LIKE WTH.
shheeesh..
he haven't accept me yet, anyway..
haisss..

okay, gonna work on my christmas fic now
byebye

JUST. ACCEPT ME WILL YA? -.-

overly infatuated

2010-11-15T17:44:00.000+08:00

1808 hours

Mock Asean Conference is finally OVERRH!
weeets!~~
just now was awesome, during the conferencing and stuff.
heheh!!
met a hot guy from Anderson Sec!
omg, i don't know why, but i kept looking at him.
urrrghhh!
oh, there was some times he looked at me too.
we exchanged glances, heh, that moment..
i wish it would never end!
ohh weeellll...
but just a few minutes ago (maybe an hour or so alrdy..) i "stalked" him.
Carene and Janziel (was it Janziel or Juliana?) was shouting "go, catch up with him"
because we were taking the same route home (nah, actually there was a shortcut to my house.. LOL)
heh!!
BUT! his friends were like BEHIND CARENE and she was SHOUTING LIKE A MAD WOMAN!
OMG!
i was already blushing! heh!
then, i saw him running off to Nuovo.
but at least before he started running, we managed to exchange glances!
hahah!
but i guess he was running away from me..
TROLOLOL! <--- what does this exactly mean??
okkaayy..
i seriously don't know why i tend to like guys who are rich, without knowing that they are actually rich!
First it was Ian, and then *ahem ahem* and then, this Fauzan guy!
awwwh, if only we'd meet again..
but that'll be disasterous!
i can't make up my mind between the two then!
ohh well...
as Ariel said "Let time tells"
usaha. doa. tawakal.
(effort. pray. leave it to fate)

just now, was simply just awesome.
the feeling died down already..
awwwh... )):
oh well, tomorrow SARAWAK TRIP MEETING!
weeets~!
but still need to used my brain and vocal chords.
nyeehh...
but still.. at least i don't have to stay at home and miss that guy..
hmmm.. maybe i can see him on the streets?
LOL!
HELLO!
in school i'm already meeting *ahem ahem*.
haiiyyyooo..
choose one luhhh..
but somehow, my infatuations are always stronger than crushes...
)):
haizxzszxzxszsxxzszxzszxzsxzs....
*hee hee hoo.. hee hee hoo..*
okay, i guess this post is long enough! ;D
byebye!

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face i came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words i need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

1924 hours

2010-11-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

15 more days, bebeh!
yeah, for real.
i lost track of the date a few days ago.
LOL.

I HAVE DIARRHOEA! (food poisoning)
DAMN, IT'S ANNOYING!
aarrghhhh.
okayy..
soo.. i've started my tumblr but i don't have any followers yet..
besides my sister, that is..
i'm soh sadded.
hahah!
oh well..
i'm starting to love Maru, like seriously.
sexy osaka man, no more my favourite.
awwh, sad!
I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO POST.
nyeehh..

またたき始めた幾千の星
その下で僕らは共に生きてる
小さな瞳の向こうに
掻き消されていくキミの声

We are living together under those thousands of stars
that have begun to twinkle
Beyond your little eyes
your voice is drowned out

- Kitto Shiawase ga Kimi wo Matteru
きっと幸せがキミを待ってる by Ohkura Tadayoshi, Kanjani8

1530 hours

2010-11-13T14:47:00.000+08:00

hawt much.
i've just created a tumblr!
anf i'm sooo following yadaeighter! ((:
STALKER.
heh, nahh..
alright, shall keep this post short ((:

何より大切な（絆を感じた）
君だから（もう一人じゃない）
守る者それは僕自身じゃなくてこの手の中に
いつまでもそばにいよう（もっと触れ合った）
思い出を（溢れるくらい）
愛を刻もう
晴れ渡る空
僕らの未来照らしてください

My most precious person (I felt a bond)
Therefore you (are not alone anymore)
The thing I protect is not my own, but this hand held in mine
I’ll always be by your side (coming closer together)
Our memories together (overflow)
Engraving our love
The sun fills the sky
Please shine over our future

- Dear... by Murakami Shingo

2227 hours

2010-11-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

ah, now i know why i dreamt of that kissing scene.
the feeling.. is the same that i had for this video.
(last part, when the kid kissed Maru)

meccha kawaii!

めちゃかわいいでよね? ^^
(meccha kawaii desu yo ne?)
(very cute, isn't it?)

not sure if it's right.. shheeeshh..
but, anyways, now, i can finally relax, waiting for another sign.. )):
good night!
おやすみ ! ((:

LOL

2010-11-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

2025 hours

ok, guys, you can all LAUGH OUT LOUD now.
i'm still posting.
i don't know why, but my instincts told me to do this.
i wanted to go to my plurk but my fingers typed blogger instead.
WTF.
freaky, right?
this is not the first time.
ahhh. super annoying.
now i can't do anything myself.
blame myself for day-dreaming all the time, even now.
damn, it's freaky.

just now, i had a dream.
a beautiful dream i've never thought of in my whole entire life.
someone kissed me.
hahah, dareka ga watashi ni kisu wo shita
誰かが私にキスをした
it's a movie, by the way. it's called Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac.
yeah, it has something to do with the book, i guess..
ok, back to my point.
the person who kissed me.
until now, i still can't imagine it happening in real life.
the guy..
was so random!
it was someone i'm not really that close to from 3C1. (someone who still owes me 2 bucks)
it was Adiy. (i don't even know how to spell his name!)
but awwh, it was so sweet..
i expected someone else to be in the place of Adiy..
shheeeshh..
oh well..
15 MORE DAYS, BEBEH!
suhhweeetts!
hmm.. i've nothing else to write about..
that's sad..
MAC is next week!
aaahhh! i'm not prepared!
JULIANNNAAAAA!
i'll be counting on you! :x
hahah!
i just love writing in japanese..
Kanji + Hiragana + Katakana = (can't explain)
but it's shown up there! ((:
i feel like downloading the Japanese font.
LOL.
i wanna go out soon!
oh, wait, i AM going out soon!
weeets! 6.5 outing! :D:D
aaannnnd this SUNDAY!
K2 graduation! weee~!
okay, that's all i've got for now.
gotta prepare for MAC.
but i'll be doing my fic first! /:
byebye!~

1905 hours

2010-11-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

weets! 90th post!
gaawdd.. i should just stop posting pictures of them.
heh, yeah, i know it's annoying.
my tagboard is dying every second.
and, i promise you, this would be my last post here. (:

being with you for one and a half years,
that's just awesome.
thanks for always being there for me when i needed someone to talk to.
thank you so much for being the only one listening to my rants.
thank you so much for going through thick and thin with me.
there were times when the rain fell heavily
and there were times when the sun shone brightly on me.
and you were always there for me.
thank you, dear.
i guess this is not the first time i'm saying this.
but for now, it's real.
this would be our last time we'll be together.
i found a replacement.
but nothing would ever replace you in my heart.
i loved the times when you watched movies with me
i loved the times when you watched videos with me.
i especially loved the times when you didn't accept these <3>

because the codes are incomplete
dear, i will NEVER forget you.
although it might be tempting to approach you again..
i guess.. i shall try not to..
i'm sorry if this is not my last.
i'm sorry if in the future i would bug you again.
but dear, you're the best of the BEST!
i love you and only you!
I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST BLOG!!!!
heh, surprised huh? LOL.
i'd reeeeaaalllly hope this won't be the last.. ((:
but anyway, before i sign off, let's go off with Maru's PAAAN!

SEI NO.. PAAAAAAN!

さよなら。

YOKO IN TOWN!

2010-11-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

1638 HOURS

WTF.

YOKO'S IN TOWN. AS IN YOKOYAMA YOU. IN SINGAPORE. IN ORCHARD. LIKE, 3 HOURS AGO. WTF.

kjsdfnalkivglwhsilrnhqfalhbsnv;clacefadlisj

AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!

lucky yooouuuu!!!

don't mean to be rude, but..

why is it that it's always a non-fan that gets to meet the person you idolize?!

aaaahh!

though you're a Ryo fan (like me), you get to see Yokocho!

aahhh! WTF. i wanna meet him too!

he's one of my favs from Kanjani8!!

but, anyway, I'm happy for you!! <3

you're one lucky person!

you got the tickets for their con too!

oh wait, you can fit into the NEWS concert tee??

cool, mine's wwaaaayyyy too small.

NICE KNOWING THAT THERE'S MORE EIGHTERS OUT THERE IN SINGAPORE!

weeeets! give K8 more love, yos!

hahah! it was funny when you posted the post on the K8 community and all the Singapore Eighters pop out!

you're suuuppppeeeerrrr lucky! gawd..

but yeah, when Ryo comes to Singapore, LET'S AMBUSH HIM TOGETHER.

and seeing a girl with Yoko?

*cross fingers* please, oh please let her be his girlfriend. ^^

gaawd, seriously, i guess all the other eighters would be happy for him! (:

ok.. fuuu.. fuu..

*calms down*

i wanted to close down this blog but i just can't stop my rants on my idols.

ahhh..

i'll link my blog at my livejournal so other eighters can see this post too!

OMG. i still can't stop thinking about Yoko being in Singapore!

i mean, we're stepping on the same land, man!

if only you would wander around the streets of Ang Mo Kio or something.

GAAAAHHHH!

look at these signs:

-Kanjani8's Wonderful World was used as the song for the advertisement on Channel U

- That goes the same for a TegoMass song

- Yamampi and Tegoshi appeared on the Channel U advertisement

AND NOW, YOKO'S IN SINGAPORE?!

this just tells me that those are signs of JE guys having cons here! OMFG. imagine if that were to happen! (amin!!)

ok... an hour has passed since i started writing this post..

my excitement has subsided a bit..

pheeeww.. but i can totally imagine Yoko popping out at my front gate.

LOL

ok.. fuuuuufuuuuu.. *breathe in.. breathe out..* bluekk.. smells of perfume.. errrgghhh..

credits to fellow Singaporean eighter! <3>

http://tuturika.blogspot.com/2010/11/i-know-this-is-insane.html

88th post!!

2010-11-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

1943 hours

SUUHHWEEETS!

it's the 88th post and today's Ryo's birthday!
weets!
sooo, after my post, there's gonna be picspams of Ryo macros i made! :D:D
i should create a tumblr!
XD

YESTERDAY
on the way to school, met some MATREPs in the train..
one of them was Isa!
ahh, i miss him..
but too bad he's a mat rep.
thheennn went to school as usual.
DnT was awesome yesterday!
hahahahahah!!

ok.. so.. what happened today?
AWESOME.
school started a lil late, at 9..
i thought i was early, but when i reached school, Shirree told me Ms Lee was already in class..
so i rushed up to level three just in time.
JUST A SINGLE SLIGHT SECOND BEFORE MS LEE CALLED MY NAME TO MARK MY ATTENDANCE!!
holy crap, i was so damn lucky!
and thennn.. had a test on the SolidWorks thingy for DnT.. ((:
it was eaassyy peeesssyy.. ^^
after that, waited for an hour for MY DEAREST SECRETARY who was having her Taiwan trip briefing..
and then, off to lunch (thanks Ronald!!)
thenn, went back and did book-checking in Cornerstone..
Ms Lee gave us KitKats! ^^
then i made my way to the zoo.. alone..
I ALMOST GOT LOST WITH THE MONKEYS!
i stopped at a bus stop in the middle of nowhere to change busses..
and around the bus stop, THERE WAS A HELL LOT OF MONKEYS!
i got ssuuuuuuupppppperrrrr scared and started singing to myself..
then, when the bus came, i flagged like a mad woman. "-_-
hahah! then, took 138 straight home ((:

ok.. now, to my picspams!!
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NISHIKIDO RYO!!!~

superman, it's you, jii-chan!

2010-11-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

1844 hours

fooooohhh!
A POST MORE TO THE 88TH!
shall post it on Ryo's birthday (on the 3rd)..
so... will be skipping tomorrow! :D:D

weeeeeeetttss~
y'know, since this kindest soul on earth named NAZIHAH BTE NA'AMSAH doesn't like what i like, i shall stop posting about my j-pop crap.
hahah! doesn't make sense AT ALL.
BUT! will be updating my livejournal! ^^
like.. finally.. -.-
if only my scanner works on my laptop..
if only i could scan my drawings and post in on my livejournal!
AAAARRGGGHHH, DAMNYOU, DAMN SCANNER!
omg, i've turned unsensored again..

didn't really have fun today cause FAZLEEEE didn't come to school!
arrghhh.. POA lesson.. borriinnggg..
but for the first time in Singapore's history, i actually kept myself busy during the whole hour of POA.!!
yeah.. i'm calling it POA, not HELL. (:
ahhh.. having neck pain AGAIN.
ME WANT SALONPAS!
uurrgghh.. my present you're about to give me..
can you give me Salonpas instead?
like.. seriously..
orrrr maybe.. a massaging machine or something?
it's hurts.. ):

I'M GOING TO DA ZOOOO TOMORROW!
SUUHHHWEEEETS!
the one who picked up my call was awesome.
he's super friendly! ((:
can't wait to go there tomorrow! ^^

oii Nazihah!
i reeeaaalllyy want you to watch this video and look at the lyrics and know what is friendship all about.
PLLLEEEEEEEAAAASSSSEEE.
JUST. THIS. VIDEO.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zLPB88O_EIM&feature=related

though he's not handsome, his voice suck and all..
i want you to look at the lyrics..
it's based on a true story and he made it into a song beautifully..
this song reeeaallly bonded the fans and them..
it also strengthen the friendship between these 7 Kansai (Osaka) guys.
you can see them smiling and a later part of the song..
those. are real smiles. real laughter. not plastic ones ((((:

AND I HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOU TODAY. THANKS, YOS! :D:D

413man (jii-chan)

If you could have one wish granted, what will it be?
Someone once said that on a television anime.
I am sure everyone thought about that before
I tried to think about it too
Will I want to be rich? Have a cute girlfriend?
Receive a Gal`s panties? Grant me 100 more wishes?
It always finishes without deciding on one
I tried to think about it now that I am an adult again
The first thing that popped into my head was
To say thank you to Jii-chan who is in heaven
If I met you now I wonder how will it be like?
Will you realized that its me now that I am all grown up?
I am not confident that I can tell you what I want properly,
so I will try to sing you a song
Although I inherited your bad singing, Jii-chan

We always slept together in the small six-tatami mats room,
with Jii-chan and Baa-chan
You always played with me on holidays
We went to catch bugs together
Jii-chan was a professional at catching bugs
Then there was one day, you said `we can`t go today, I am sorry`
I still remember even now, that sad look on your face
I heard much later, that your heart became weaker
You didnt show me your weakness, I wished you told me

Jii-chan came home from the hospital
There was something on top of your heart
When I asked `does it hurt?`
You smiled and said `Jii-chan became superman`
You were so cool

Superman, to me, that`s you Jii-chan
Have I became even just a little closer to you?
I`ve found precious friends too
Superman, can I become one too?
Have I learnt how to smile just a little like you?
Even such a person like me, I have people who support me

On the day you left
All the adults were laughing
I didnt know, On that day, we were suppose to send you off, laughing
I scolded everyone, `what are you laughing at!`
I was scolded by mum, `what are you doing!`
I am sorry Jii-chan, I was a kid all the way to the end

Superman, to me, that`s you Jii-chan
Have I became even just a little closer to you?
I`ve found precious friends too
Superman, can I become one too?
Have I learnt how to smile just a little like you?
Even such a person like me, I have people who support me

Jii-chan, I will try to say this all over
Thank you for making me meals
Thank you for appearing in my dreams on my 20th birthday
Thank you for teaching me lots and lots of gentleness
I will say all this forever and ever and ever

Thank you.

I DIDNT TRANSLATE THE LYRICS (:

WONDERFUL WORLD!

2010-10-31T16:53:00.000+08:00

1909 HOURS

OMGZXZXZXZ!
finally found Brulee!
weeeets!
found Rolling Coaster on youtube too!
shall upload it on the next post! :D
i fraking love Ryo's full version of Monologue.
it's awwhhsommee..
hope i can get the lyrics soon!
i LOVVEEE Wonderful World lyrics too!
ohh, and Mr Travelling Man by TOKIO ^^

and i seriously love my hair right now.
IT'S SUPERH CURRRLLLYYYY!!
my pillow can seriously be a great hairdresser!! :D:D
did basically nothing today..
went to madrasah, went home, slept, reply SOMEONE'S crapS, logged on, went down to see my dad, blogging..
yeah, that's my boring life.
supposed to be doing my Math homework, but.. oh well..
gonna procrastinate a bit more. ((:
i've really made my decision to work part time.
I NEEEEED MONEY!
i have to help my mum!
uurrghhh.. those people who don't need money, like, seriously..
don't say you NEED money. instead, you should say, you WANT money.
urrrgghhhh.. super pissed off.
i don't care if i don't have money for myself..
but i HAVE to support my mum!
oh, c'mon.. how can a single mother with a monthly income of a thousand two support a family of 5?!
okk.... why am i telling my personal story online..
cfdn avjtmcwa;

I'M SUPPEERRRHH EXCITED FOR THE SARAWAK TRIIPPPP!! :D:D:D

ok, can't help it but post Rolling Coaster as well!
and you know what?
they sing live for Brulee while dancing!
and they play the instruments live, btw. their singing for Rolling Coaster is also live! ((:
that's why i like Kanjani8! :D:D

lyrics and translations here

http://ynaoblivious.livejournal.com/60843.html#cutid1
http://minacchi.livejournal.com/9101.html

Hey guys!
Everything will surely begin from here.
"That is destiny."
The bad things, and just about everything, now that I realize it, have gone somewhere.
I've already forgotten about them.
"What do you say?" Yeah...
So that I would't trip, I've been walking while always looking down.
After all I did was to search for miracles, the day is already ending.
Right now, right here, we swear that such thing as our hearts being apart would never happen.

- Wonderful World by Kanjani8

1553 hours!

2010-10-30T15:10:00.000+08:00

Ohkura's j-web entry:

I’m sleepy
But I can’t sleep
So I turned on the TV
But I can’t sleep because it’s not interesting.
If I turn it off, it’s too quiet
I’m scared (it is scary)
To feel like you’re closed in on, I’m sure it’s this (feeling)
In the end, I felt hungry
But I don’t have any ingredients to begin with
I ended up eating Korean dried seaweed
My tummy is unnecessarily empty (*)
In the end, my stomach woke up
It’s like waking a sleeping lion
Or a sleeping tiger
I’m not sure which, so I wrote both just to be sure
I’m beaten already(*2)
I’m growing sick of this way of writing.
It’s not even that interesting a thing
I noticed 7 (*3 trips? Journeys? Someone who read the original help~) ago
And yet I’m still on it
My motivation is already gone (or ‘I don’t have motivation for anything’)
I’m sleepy.

thanks livejournal user airairo for the original and hyuuga_princess for the translation!

i'm really worried for this guy..
awwhh.. c'mon..
being skinny is not healthy!
we love the fat and chubby Ohkura Tadayoshi we know!
you're getting skinnier and skinnier..
i thought it was only for Patchuppers, but on GM, you're even skinnier!

ok.. not gonna post anything today.
feeling reeeaallllyyy sleeeeeepppyyyy...
going off to take a nap now..
byebye! :D:D

wahaha!!

2010-10-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

1753 hours

TODAY WAS AWHHSSSOMMEEE!
had a really fun day with Fazlee, Matin, Hafiz and Jason. ((:
after Chem lesson, during the an hour and a half break, went out to eat with malay peeps.
i was broke and didn't bring any money.
AT ALL.
Hafiz only had $2++
the only "loaded" ones were Fazlee and Matin.
we ate Roti Prata together ^^
it was Mr Fazlee's treat for my meal :D:D
and yeah, he paid for all our drinks ;D
THANKYOU MRFAZLEE ^^
then went back to school..
still had half an hour to go before EMath lesson.
sooooo,,,
WE PLAYED CATCHING!
that's when Jason joined in the fun (:
it was awwwweeeessssoommmee..
super nostalgic!
i still remembered when the Malay guys in my primary school played "ohyapeyasom" (i have no idea how you spell that) to determine the catcher.
hahah!
so cute!
and OMG, i didn't see Hafiz hiding behind the ledge!
and when i ran towards Jason and Matin, Hafiz was laughing hysterically!
LOL. no, i mean ROFL like mad!! literally!
LOL!!!
wooow, had so much to talk about today..
hahah!

ooooh, and Jason!
let me tell you this..
if you watch Kanjani8's song PVs right..
look at the background and not the foreground.
you'll DEFINITELY see some retards doing some retarded things..
especially Musekinin Hero..
hahah!
you can see some of the members doing retarded things like...
hmmm..
you go see yourself..
hahah!
ohh, and the video up there was Wahaha
at around 5:08, you can see a lady crawling beside the guy (who wore a green vest), in the bath area, on the right hand side.. (beside his left shoulders)
nobody knows what that is.. O_O
i posted about this some time ago.. but i don't think you saw it..
hahah.
couldn't get the original pv because there was an error..
heh, so i got the viet-subbed one.. /:
make sure you look at the people in the background!
hahah! ;D

oookaayyy..
that's all for today!
byebye! :D

fuck, my brother kicked the ball and it landed on me. ON PURPOSE. wtf.

Wahaha

Seems like everyone has sorrows and problems
Whether they are big or small

So glum Sigh again
Live with loneliness and solitary

`I’m not the only one`
If you could come to think like this then it’s fine but

A word of `Go for it`
Making you feel hard again?

Waai

If I laugh
Then you laugh
And if you laugh
Then someone will laugh too

Keta Keta Keta Keta
Wahaha Wahaha

Fun

Like your yawn makes me yawn
I believe this smile will be connected

I feel like I can do it I feel like I can do it
Even though it is not a big issue

If I laugh
Then you laugh
And if you laugh
Then someone will laugh too

Like that cloud on this sky
Wish all the sadness would be disappeared and gone

Wish

Even you smile forcibly
Even they say `it is meaningless` and laugh at you

If you laugh about that too
Then they would start running and gone

`Let’s stay alive` The sound beating in my heart
Hope they are not sadness or hatred
Hope it is happy pulse

If I laugh
Then you laugh
And if you laugh
Then someone will laugh too

Like blue clears up the sky
Wish all the sadness would be dissapeared and gone

Wish

Keta Keta Keta Keta
Wahaha Wahaha

-Wahaha by Eito

musekinin hero (:

2010-10-28T20:54:00.001+08:00

2124 hours

JASON!
hahah! youtube doesn't have much things
musekinin hero is not office hero..
hahah!
it means irresponsible hero (:
the song was released during the recession period
it was to encourage people affected to move on and stay strong
a part of the lyrics are below ((:

ok, now to my post.. (:
nothing much happened..
that's why i don't really blog alot..
extended curriculum starts tomorrow!
gossshhh.
tomorrow's gonna have 2 hellish hours of emath..
IT'S 2 HOURS OF MATH IN THE MORNING!
2 HOURS!!!
wtf..
but anyway, look at the bright side..
i can see my friends! :D:D:D
lol, ok, lame..
MAC is reeeaallllyyyy eating up my time..
awwwwhh..
but at least, i made new friends! :D:D
FACEPALM.
ok, i'm craaping right now..
have to do my MATH homework or i'll die!
byebye!

oohhh, i guess i'll just put the whole song here..

We are the legendary irresponsible hero
The irresponsible hero with an infinite dream

Showa and Heisei just came and gone
We have tasted the sourness and the sweetness of it all
What is a bubble If IT is easy
A- I don't understand it but it's going to be hard

Everyone, everyone is holding uncertainty and going on
The times go up and go down
Where does your life belong?

Full speed ahead JaJaJaJa-n
Circle waist no place to stay JaJaJaJa-n
I will make you laugh until you can become like that

I'm sorry I'm in shoes JaJaJaJa-n
Butter feet running fast JaJaJaJa-n
Leave it to me everything will be alright

We are the legendary irresponsible hero
The irresponsible hero with an infinite dream

In one two and three four JaJaJaJa-n
Sweat is dry step aside from there JaJaJaJa-n
Laughing deception I will become anything

Even if I wasn't called JaJaJaJa-n
Even if I wasn't connected JaJaJaJa-n
I will make you laugh until you can become like that

When I'm called I'll fly out JaJaJaJa-n
Challenge to the limit JaJaJaJa-n
Leave it to me I will do something

We are the legendary irresponsible hero
The irresponsible hero with an infinite dream

- Musekinin Hero by Eito ((:

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/12208/kanjani8/musekinin-hero.html

it's summmmer timmme!

2010-10-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

2014 HOURS

freak. i hate the internet connection.
jdfkwqnalnvjmwe;MCF;
i'm seeeeeeeriously bored at home..
well, yeah, i know i'm supposed to do math homework now..
and do the POA elearning thingy too...
ahhh, but i'm just too damn tired..
i feel weak these days..
i guess that's because i get angry too often, huh..
that's the result of having a weak heart.. -.-

TOMORROW!
though i don't have to go, i forced my mum to..
PARENTS-TEACHERS MEETING!
i'd really want my mum to know what and how exactly i'm doing in school!
she has never took notice of my problems in school..
shhheeeeesshh..
hmmmm.. anything fun going to happen tomorrow?
i guess not..? ne?..
tomorrow, go to school, raise the flag, lessons as usual.. nagged at by Ms Florence Lee..
then will be having the DnT workshop again after school..
D:
ME WANT ME SLEEEEEP!~~
i guess i should throw a tantrum like Ohkura when he doesn't get to eat!
HAHAH!

seriously missing my primary school friends!
gawwwd.. this is the first year eversince we graduated that ther's no jalan raya!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
Fiqar has really changed..
HE AND HIS CHINESE GIRLFRIENDS..
NOW HE TALKS IN CHINESE TO ME.
wth.

i can't wait to go to Sarawak!!
yaaahoooooo~!!
i get to take the airplane with my friends! :D:D:D
too bad Amelya won't be around..
awwwhhh..
ok, shall stop here now!
byebye! :D:D

Your gaze touched me a little dangerously,
Oh Yes！It made me run,
I probably want to see you tomorrow too..
Surely I can expect things to happen in summer this year!

- Summer Time by NEWS

doron!

talilat tali... tam....plong!

2010-10-25T19:39:00.001+08:00

2043 hours

YO JASONNN!!
you want to listen to Japanese boybands right?
hmmmm...
i would recommend you to listen to Kanjani8 songs..
most of them are really optimistic songs and always keep you being optimistic!
ok, what am i talking about here..
anyway, if you want to listen to it, listen to the song "Gori Gori"
you can listen to it fron 4shared.com
i don't think they have it on YouTube..
yeaps..
NEWS songs are also nice..
but it's nicer when you know the group's history..
hahah.
but, you're free to check them out!
i really suggest Kanjani8 (they prefer to be called Eito, cause they hate the name Kanjani8 too..)
ohh, btw, you know the show 'food notes' on channel u?
one of its ad has Kanjani8's song Wonderful World!
hahah!

aaaaannnndddd.. PATCHUPPERS is a movie which all the Eito members acted in!
they acted with a BABY!!
you can download it illegaly online.. heh.
but if you ARE interested in the movie, tell me (;
but it's ok if you're not. (:

okayy.. so, now to my blog post..
can't wait for the 88th post!
heh!
the recent days weren't that interesting..
drew some drawings...
annnddd, that's all..
oooh, yesterday went out with my dad and i bought a BUBBLEGUM WATCH!!
LIKE FINALLY!!
weeeeeeeeettttssss~!!!!
suuhhhhweeeeetttsss.!!
hmmm.. what else did i do?
sleep, eat, draw.. and then i sleep, and eat.. then draw... then i sleep and eat and draw..
oooh, not forgetting replying your CRAP!
your SHIT! OMG. I SHOULDN'T HAVE AGREED TO HELP YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.
damn you. waste my monneeehhh..
but it's fun, though.. heh.
i get to see your weakness! hah!
but anyway, jy!
hmmmmm... what else to talk about?
nothing else, ne?...
oh, my current facebook status:
true friends will always remain at the starting point of the rock climbing wall. but pretenders climb up with you, reach the top and make you fall. but your true friends are always there to catch you. (:
heh, to that particular person that i love the most out there, you know what i mean! HAHAH!

you didn't reply me when i asked if you're alive.. that means you're dead? O.o fuck. can you just reply that damn message? it's not like i'm gonna eat you up or something.

I laugh that there’s nothing to worry about　
But on the inside I’m frightened
Let’s kick away the worried impatience　
Bluffing is the man’s way!

- Zukkoke Otoko Michi by Eito

doron!

1812 hours

2010-10-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

watching PATCHUPPERS for the... 4th time?
heh!
let's see if i could break my current record of watching a movie/drama for 7 times!
i watched Hana Kimi that much.
and cried seven times.
heh! retarded right?
2 more days to Monday!
OMG..
life is like hell without you now that i know the truth.
well, i HOPE and i PRAY it IS true! ;D
there's financial literacy workshop on Monday..
saddddd..
i flunked my POA, and now, THIS!
ammek kau! hahah!

i had a beatiful dream.
with you in it.. and somehow, Samantha Foo is involved in it too!
HAHAH!
weiirrrddd..
but i hope it will come true.
sooner or later, ne? ^^

just finished another drawing! :D:D
drawing of Hina (Murakami Shingo) this time.
it's for my sis' birthday.
and although she's not supposed to see it, she saw it.. -.-
so, will be drawing a cartoon for her too.
i guess drawing a cartoon is much easier. :D
hmmm.. cartoon of all the patchuppers characters!
which is everyone in Kanjani8 without Uchi including the baby!
BABY EIGHT/EITO IS JUST OH SO CUTE!!
and all the members seemed to be ready as fathers!
heh! except Toppo (Yasu) and Arsenal (Subaru)!!!
hmmm.. Ace (Ryo)? not sure..
but he seems ok with children.. well, at least behind the scenes! ;D
my younger sis who is just 4 year old has sooo many guys liking her!
WTF.
well, my sister whuuaaatt.. HAHAH!
jkjk
ok, that's all.
I WANNA GO TO THE ZOO!
doron!

1821! :D

2010-10-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

1318 HOURS

11 MORE DAYS! :D:D

weeeetsss!
i'm suhh happehh. :D:D:D
i'm soooo looking forward to Monday yos!
weee~

MY. BROTHER. IS. A. RETARD. LIKE. SERIOUSLY.
LITERALLY. I. MEAN. IT.

ooohhh..
i'm soooooo loookkkiingg forwaaaarrrdddd to TUESDAY!!!
we'll get to know our groups for the Sarawak trip!!
hope i'll be with him! HEH!
:D:D:D
oooh, and Ezaidah too! and all the toher sec 3s!! :D:D:D
okay, my mind is going haywire right now..
just like the weather. LOL.
watched PATCHUPPERS again yesterday.
i guess after reading the background information about the characters, it kinda make sense.
seriously, taking care of TWO BABIES at a time is annoying.
two BIG AND GROWN UP babies.
urrggghhhhh.
nothing much to blog about nowadays..
just getting bored at home, slacking in front of my laptop, thinking
OH, I DON'T HAVE TO STUDY ANYMORE FOR NOW.
heh, why'd you think i got crappy marks for my Final Years.
tsskkk.

1821♥ Yoroshiku! :D

You said this town's speech is vulgar
But I won't change
I'll say, "I love ya"
- Osaka Romanesque by Eito

*"I love ya" is said as "Sukiya" in Kansai dialect instead of the normal Japanese "Suki dayo/ Suki desu"

elearning suck a big time.

2010-10-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

1813HOURS

77th POST!

WTF.
patchuppers wasn't as great as what i expected!
i felt so empty after the 77 minutes movie!
what the freaking hell!
it's not even a story.
IT'S JUST SCENES WHICH MAKE FANGIRLS GO KYAAAA OVER EITHER THE MEMBERS OR THE BABY!
i don't care, i'm writing my own fic!
and i'm seriously looking forward towards the making!
with subs, hopefully..
EIGHT is sooo cute! ><
aah, go watch it guys!
when it's being streamed online. ;b
it's illegal though.. heh.
but i'm getting my DVD on Nov 2nd! woohoo!!

12 MORE DAYS! :D:D

stupid haze..
my anemia's getting worse because of you, dammit.
hate it when it worsen.
ms florence lee smsed me just now..
aahh, now there's no way for me to escape POA elearning.
but i have a problem with my powerpoint..
heh. reason good enough?
hopefully ^^
so, with that, i've officially completed my elearning!
:D:D

ok, i'll stop here for now.
byebye!~

i'm glad it's you and no one else. (:

I thought I, had lost my way
On the long road we call life
and hiding, so no one could see
the tears flowing through the darkness
I opened my eyes, and saw you were there
Shining as brightly as a star
That is when, I chose to, begin anew
- Hoshi wo Mezashite ; NEWS

PATCHUPPERS!

2010-10-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

1932 hours

today went fast..
sec 3 was released two minutes early, bus service 851 came right after alighting 811, and bus service 76 came before 72 and 13..
doesn't happen that often..
sister's showing attitude again just beacuse i don't want to send the email.
WTF.
got back my results!
for the first time ever in my life, i swear, i cried out tears of joy.
i passed the overall by 2%!
i failed my 2nd combine.. by 0.2% LOL

I'M SUPPOSED TO BE CELEBRATING THE RELEASE OF PATCHUPPERS (8UPPERS) NOW BUT NO ONE HAVE UPLOADED IT YET!!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!~~~

Where, where will bring us
this long long street?
One day, one day we'll see it,
beyond the far, far away sky.
- Baby Baby by Eito

nomnomnom

2010-10-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

EITO IS JUST DAMN SEXY, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY EAT! HEH!

DORON! ;b

8uppers!! 8D

2010-10-17T13:50:00.000+08:00

1428 HOURS

i love the fact that i'm getting nuts instead of fruits in these chocolates! <3
i hate the fact that Maru has nicer legs than me! awhh..
mine's too skinny, heh.
i'm trying my best to gain weight 'kay?
being this skinny is freaky enough..
I LOVE HATE MEME!! :D:D
i love the fact that a friend is willing to help me out when i'm in need and not just say "oh.. ok.."
i hate the fact that my brother is home.. O;
i love the fact that i switched off my phone and not get any disruptions!
i hate the fact that i have tons of messages from YOU, a SINGLE PERSON when i on my phone.. -.-
annoying much?
i love the fact that tomorrow is MONDAY!
i hate the fact the WE'RE GETTING OUR RESULTS TOMORROW!
i love the fact that we don't have anymore homework to deal with! (well, at least, for now..)
i hate the fact that i'll be bored to death..
and lastly,
i love the fact that i love you;
but i hate the fact that you don't even know that..
but i love the fact that i'm moving on.
and i hate the fact that i'll start to forget you.

that's my post! it says everything! heh.
hate meme rockzxzxzxzxzxzx xoxoxoxo :D:D:D:D:D
ok, going off now.
byebye~

hmmmm.. what song?

It's a gamble to win or lose
and that's no way you can lose.
Face ahead and take the risky path.
I say ready go!

- Nakanaide Boku no Music by Eito

thanks to you too, jason! :D

2010-10-16T18:09:00.000+08:00

1845 hours

hey you! yes, you, if your name is Jason! (;
that post reeaaaalllllyyy made my day!!
i'm soooooo happpyyyy that someone actually asked me to be happy! Hahah!
Im sooo glad somebody actually wrote positive things about me!! :D:D
yes, i WILL be happy! :D
well, at least i'll TRY to be happy! hahah!
YOU HAVE TO BE HAPPY TOO, 'KAY?
i'm always here for you if you need me! :D
you're an awesome friend, how can i not know your existence?
hahah!
thanks for the 'get well soon' wish!
my flu isn't getting any better.. D:
but anyway, THANKS A BUNCH! ;D

being at home is such a bore these days..
all i do is sleep, eat, use the computer to watch some dramas.. -.-
ooh, i've just finished watching Last Friends which i started watching yesterday (;
it's not as bad as i thought, but you can't watch it for Ryo-chan.
'cause it will cause you heartbreak. heh.
Ryo's character is suuppppeerrrr psychotic..
and the early part of the series is a bit too... hmmm.. R21..
but it gave me ideas for my fic! ;b
you should realllyyy watch it if you're a yaoi writer! ;p
hmmm.. not sure what dramas to watch next..
any recommendations? jap dramas?
would prefer a Johnny's drama.. but wouldn't mind any other usual jap dramas..
as long as it's nice and worth watching! :D

2 MORE DAYS TO... THE JUDGEMENT DAY. muahahahahahahahah
good luck for your results, everyone!
i prayed sooo hard that my results are satisfying.. i'll pray hard for eveyone too, alright! :D
byebye! ^^

happiness is different for everone. for me, my happiness is you.

How far have I come since then?
That endless time when we were close together
The me who will keep walking tomorrow
Prays for eternal love, even now

- Snow White by Eito

i'm feeeling nasssssuuuuuu~~

2010-10-15T12:56:00.001+08:00

1340 HOURS

I. AM. SICK.

hey jason!!
how great is this? you're the main topic on my post today!
hahah!!
thanks for being a reeeaaalllyy great friend.
nobody really care whether or not i'm happy. and nobody really notice my sadness deep inside.
but you do!! :D:D
yes, i'm reaaallllyy happy when ms xu pulled me out to ask me what happened!
cause i can finally realise that someone out there is actually thinking of me! :D:D
that includes you! thanks, yo!

anyway, i had a nightmare last night.
after watching the child's eye.. -.-
i dreamt that there was a child ghost in my toilet..
hahah!!
and the movie gave me an idea on my fic!!
RYOHKURA FTW~!!
nothing much to talk about for now..
byebye!
i just realised my sister is ssoooooohhhh cuuuuuuttteee!! :D:D

You're right next to me but it's so vague
It's always like this
Are you close to me? Or are you not?
I'm the only one that's about to break
Let me know, please

- Deisre by Shibutani Subaru and Yasuda Shota (Kanjani8)

doron!

i'm feeling reeeeeeeettttttoooooo~~

2010-10-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

2035 HOURS

SEXY OSAKA MAN

look! another fanvid by yadaeighter!
she took the soundtrack from the Inception trailer and put in Eito stuffs.
so, INCEPTION + EITO = EITOCEPTION
:D:D
isn't it coool??

ooh.. had a great DnT outing just now with Shi Hui, Hui Min, Greald and Woan Yee!!
hahahhh!!!
watched 'The Child's Eye' just now.
Shi Hui was emotionless, as usual.
hahah!!
the things she said was just "so noisy.." "next time don't go this cinema one.." "not scary.." "why you cover your face like that?"
hahah!!
the show was not that great.. but still.. worth it!
going out tmrw with syarifah, iffah, carissa and the rest.
not sure if my mum allow me to..

hmmm.. what else to talk about?
i'm loving sexy osaka man!! :D:D
oh, and anyway, the lyrics i posted don't belong to me!
and 'doron' is how yoko ends off his j-web entry.
it's what ninjas say, according to him..
;b

i seriously have to stop doing things absent-mindedly..
i seriously have to stop being so absent-minded!!!

oh, and you!
yes you!
i'll always be there if you need me! :D

sometimes in our lives
we all have pain, we all have sorrow..
but if we are wise.
we know that there's always tomorrow

lean on me, when you're not strong
and i'll be your friend, i'll help you carry on
for it won't be long, till i'm gonna need somebody to lean on

you know, Ms Xu is like my mother.
she noticed that i lost weight!
not even my OWN MOTHER noticed that!!
how awesome is she?! ne?
have i talked about this before?
hahah, lol.
being so absent-minded again..
ok, going off now. byebye! :D:D

I want to become “An eyesore, but someone with spirit”
Sway the times that touched the heart,
Deep inside the words, shy and hesitant
The brulee that's turning red

- Brulee by Eito

AKAKU SOMARU BRULEE!

doron!

i'm feeling oreingeeeeeeee~~~

2010-10-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

1239 hours

IT'S THE 70TH POST. !!!! :D:D:D

weird blogger..
anyway, look! a fanvid! jhbvauhbgksnaal
she's an AWESOME eighter!!!
she's from Singapore too!
!! :D:D:D

watch it, watch it!!

she made it herself..
aaaaahhh! and she make all the fangirls go kyyyaaaaaaa!!!! :D:D:D
there's pairings videos too!
shall upload some other time! :D:D:D

OH!
AND THEY USED KANJANI8'S (EITO'S) WONDERFUL WORLD FOR THE CHANNEL U SHOW AD!!
(i guess the show is Food Note?) ;D

had the last paper just now.
physics.
it was manageable..
yaaayyy!! i don't have to stay up late to study again!!
weeeets!!
but i still have to wake up early for the DnT workshops..
seriously, i reeeeaaalllly don't feel like going.. D:
but look at the bright side!
i can FINALLY start drawing and writing fanfics again! :D:D:D
okayyysss..
going off now!
i'm gonna start writing a new fic!! :D:D:D

I pretended to forget
But I couldn't forget about you
When I try to act strong
Loneliness tightly grips my heart
No matter how many times I turn around on the road home
I know I can't see you
I can't see you
You're not here anymore

- Fuyu Koi by Eito

he smiled at me! he said 'goodbye'! that reeeaaaallllyyy made my day!! :D:D

THE END.

i'm feeling burrrraaaaakkkkuu!

2010-10-12T16:59:00.000+08:00

1759 hours

MATH WAS A KILLER.
I STUDIED DIFFERENT TOPICS THAT DIDN'T COME OUT IN THE PAPER FOR HISTORY.
DESIGNANDTECHNOLOGY WAS ALMOST EASY.
AND TOMORROW, THE FINAL BATTLE.
DEAREST PHYSICS. :D:D:D

totally flunked math.
i expect failure for english and math.
not sure for english overall, cause there's still journal and stuffs.
nevertheless, I WILL FIGHT TILL MY BEST FOR THE LAST PAPER TOMORROW.
and after that, i can stare at Ryo's poster 24 hours, praying hard that i pass all the subjects i know i can score.
:D:D
thanks to all my friends who have encouraged me to keep going!
comments on my fanfics also made my day!
gonna write more fanfictions and draw more stuffs starting tomorrow!! ^^
i've already started getting worried for my results though..
i'm not usually like this!
aaaaaaahhhhh!!~~~

was reading my previous blog posts just now.
i've realised that i've matured at some parts.
but i'm still the same, 90%.
ok, what the heck am i saying..
time flies so fast..
the posts seemed like it was just yesterday's..
i realised i'm updating more often nowadays.
teehee!~
ok, i guess i'm going off now.
studying Physics!
don't want to stay up until the morning again like i did for History.
in the end, what i studied didn't come out.. -.-
so, lesson of the week.
STUDY EVERYTHING.

half asleep your eyes go towards the table
but your coffee is a little thin
if it is you beyond the steam
it will warm me inside my chest

there are some things forgotten sometimes,
sometimes there are hurting fingers
however, i always make you worry
i grip the huge support you give me

it shines, it shines
if i loose you, i won't even need a tomorrow anymore
however, i hold you, i hold you
if we embrace each other
i won't be scared of anything when it is us two

- Cinematic by Kanjani8

i'll always be there for you even if you don't need me. (:

how sad is this?! i couldn't find a black ranger's picture...
oh well.. he looks better here. :D
Yokocho! you're always my black ranger even without your suit! :D:D

doron! :D

i'm feeling buuuurrruuuu~

2010-10-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

1333 hours

IT'S 10.10.10

yeaps, an auspicious date when people get married.
while people dream to get married on this date, my dream is to get married on 08082018 :D
it's EITO DAY and i get all the eights! :D:D:D
but i'll be 23 though.. kinda young huh?
lol, let's just leave it to fate to decide on that.
but i'm veeeerrrrrrryyyy sure i want to get married on EITO DAY! :D:D:D
HAHAH.
i'm an eighter, today and forever!

and i have a reader for my fic!
aww.. too bad it's only A reader..
it's ok, i'll wait a while.
i'm getting hang of history. but have to focus on mg DnT too!
it's the only thing i can score.!!! ;D
those taking Bio and History, ALL THE BEST!
no, i'm not being sarcastic.
hahah!
wonder how you guys can memorize everything..
watching 'Before I Was Awesome' right now.
feel so disturbed when they called each other.
Hahah! Zaki and Kevin..
LOL
anyway, i'm going off to study.
bye!
for the first time ever i used the comp only for a few minutes.
hahah!
ok, bye for now~

This very same day 10 yrs ago we were together
like a sky that never ever changes,
the moments piled up and became precious
since then and forever
I'll smile because of you.

- 10 nen go no kyou no hi mo

you think i'm scared of you? no~ hit me if you want to. throw me vulgarities. but i've told you for a million times. hurt my friend and you're busted.

i'm feeling ieeerrrroooo~

2010-10-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

1859 hours

crap it.
i'm supposed to be studying history.
but isn't it great? me updating my blog often? so you can read my rants?
hahah.
nothing happened recently.
always thinking of writing another fanfic instead of studying..
but i did manage to do one!
an OhYass fic!
but it's not really the Ohyass i usually write about..
they just hugged in the end..
hahah! and yeah, Hattie..
don't forget to read my fics on my livejournal! ;D
i guesssss.... that's all?
yeaps.. :D
byebye!
all the best for your papers, peeps! :D:D

i reeeeaaalllly regret knowing you. can you just shut up? like, seriously. go and clean your filthy mouth la. and, yeah. last SERIOUS warning. harm my friend and you're toasted. ooh, not forgetting, IT'LL BE MY LAST TIME SAYING THIS TO YOU BEFORE I PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE. WELL THAT IS, IF YOU'RE READING THIS. I FREAKING DON'T LIKE YOU. WHAT LANGUAGE MUST I SAY THIS TO YOU FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND? VULGARITIES? CAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY LANGUAGE YOU KNOW RIGHT? just. fuck off.

my fanfic (drabble)

Oh, and for your info, i made this based on the song Puzzle by Kanjani8. lyrics are below.. ^^

Yasu sat beside the glass window, arms around his legs, staring at the note in his hand.

Goodbye, Shota.

That day I didn’t lose my way. Someday, I want to see you again. I’m looking for that missing piece. I’m looking for it here in Tokyo.

Love, Tacchon.

He hoped Ohkura was still there with him. He hoped Ohkura still had his clothes stacked up nicely beside his in the cupboard. He hoped Ohkura’s entire comb collection is still placed neatly beside his nail polish bottles. But they were all gone, together with those hopes he had for him, those dreams he shared with him, those times he spent with him.

It had been a year since he left. Yasu had been suffering all alone in the darkness. Every time he could not sleep, he would always open up the old photo album. The two of them were there, laughing innocently. He could never forget that special day. That special day when they shared their dream. That special day when they held their heads up high and that special day when they spent the whole day solving the puzzle they bought.

That dream we held on to then. Are we getting closer to it? Are we drifting farther away?

Everyday he went to the east street at around 3. That was where they always met. Even after Ohkura left, he would still go to that place, having the thought that he will be there.
But for one year, he was never there. But, Yasu had never given up hope and went back to that place everyday without fail. Still hanging on to that hope he had. He was sure that one day, he will be there.

Yasu looked at the clock. It was 2.30 pm. He put the note down on the table, took his long coat and went to that place as usual. But this time, it was not usual at all.

A tall figure carrying a bag with a luggage approached him. That figure was familiar. He had seen it somewhere. He watched as the figure became nearer and visible. The figure stopped right in front of him.

“I’ve found it. My missing piece. It’s right here with me. Shota.”

Yasu took a few steps before throwing his arms around Ohkura. He knew that at that moment, he would never be alone. Ever again.

眠れない夜はいつも　古いアルバムを開く
nemurenai yoru wa itsumo furui arubamu wo hiraku
on those nights when I can't sleep I always open up the old photo album
無邪気な顔で笑ってる　ぼくらがいる
mujaki na kao de waratteru bokura ga iru
the two of us are there laughing innocently
これは何年前だろう　堀江公園のサクラ
kore wa nan nen mae darou Horie Kouen no sakura
I wonder how many years ago this was the sakura at Horie Park
初めて喧嘩した夜も　この場所だったな
hajimete kenka shita yoru mo kono basho datta na
the first we fought was also here wasn't it

あの頃抱いていた夢
ano koro idaiteita yume
the dream that we held on to then
近づいているの？　遠ざかってるの？
chikazuiteiruno? toozakatteruno?
are we getting closer to it? are we drifting farther away?

「東通りで３時頃」　待ち合わせはいつもそこ
「higashi doori de 3ji goro」 machiawase wa itsumo soko
「East street at around 3」 that was always where we met
電車は街をくぐり抜け淀川越えて
densha wa machi wo kugurinuke yodogawa koete
the train goes through the town and over the Yodo River
両手を広げ堂々と　そびえ立つ太陽の塔
ryoute wo hiroge doudou to sobietatsu taiyou no tou
boldly open up your arm to the sun's tower that rises up
記念に買ったあのパズル　昨日のようだね
kinen ni katta ano pazuru kinou no you dane
the puzzle that i bought to remember it seems like just yesterday doesn't it

なくしてしまったひとつのピース
nakushiteshimatta hitotsu no pi-su
that one piece that was lost
探しているよ　手を借してくれ
sagashiteiru yo te wo kashitekure
i'm looking for it lend me a hand

さよなら　迷いなきあの日よ
sayonara mayoinaki ano hi yo
goodbye that day I didn't lose my way
いつの日かまた会いたいな
itsu no hika mata aitai na
someday i want to see you again
探してる　足りないピースを
sagashiteru tarinai pi-su wo
i am looking for it that missing piece
ひとりじゃ　とても無理だよ
hitorija totemo muri da yo
all by muself it is very impossible

さよなら　迷いなきあの日よ
sayonara mayoinaki ano hi yo
goodbye that day I didn't lose my way
いつの日かまた会いたいな
itsu no hika mata aitai na
someday i want to see you again
探してる　足りないピースを
sagashiteru tarinai pi-su wo
i am looking for it that missing piece
探してる　この東京で
sagashiteru kono Tokyo de
I'm looking for it here in Tokyo

眠れない夜はいつも　古いアルバムを開く
nemurenai yoru wa itsumo furui arubamu wo hiraku
on those nights when I can't sleep I always open up the old photo album
無邪気な顔で笑ってる　みんながいる
mujaki na kao de waratteru minna ga iru
all of us are there laughing innocently

i'm feeling guuurriiiiin! :D

2010-10-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

1641 hours

Chem paper was manageable, but wasn't all that easy

this is super weird!
when i went to sleep just now, i thought of a thousand things to post on my blog.
now i have no idea what to post.
LOL.
oooh, yeah.
concern of friends towards their friends.
it's not what you call 'kepo'.
only egoistic people think that way.
sometimes, i wonder.
do i exist only when my friends feel lonely or need me?
oh wait, or do i even exist in their world at all?
if all my friends only think that way, then who am i supposed to lean on to?
there is this thing called the karma.
you get the things you do to others.
but i don't believe that.
what i get is just some stinky, scorny look on their faces when i got worried about them.
or, the most common reply, 'hahah, it's ok. i'm fine.' and trying to make the friend 'paiseh'.
EGO.
you're saying you're fine when it's clearly written on your face that you're not.
you think you sound macho saying that, then you're wrong.
it's not even cool saying that.
be glad that someone actually worry for you.
it means that they care for you and treasure their friendship with you.
dumbass.

anyway, let's look at the bright side. ^^
stayed up until 1.30 in the morning.
well, actually i intended to stay up later than that, but i could take it no more.
nope, not because i was sleepy.
but because i was freaked out.
like, seriously.
when my sister was teaching me at around 12.30 am, i heard my mum calling me.
but my sis heard nothing.
anyway, my mum was already fast asleep.
i ignored that.
then, my sis went to sleep. i was left alone outside.
i heard something that sounded like paper being thrown form downstairs at 1.
i ignored that.
then, i saw someone standing in my kitchen.
it's a shadow of someone.
i ignored it, for the sake of Chem.
the one that left me running into my bedroom was when i felt someone walking behind me.
i switched off the kitchen light, then the living room light and climbed up my bed.
i switched off the lights and covered my face, with my hands trembling.
worse case ever.!
hahah!
i'm kinda used to that, but NOT when i'm alone.
hahah!

ok, my post is long enough.
hear from me soon! :D:D

club8's gonna be awesome. i know it.
CAN'T WAIT!!!!

Ryo(Ace), Yasu(Toppo), Hina(Jackie), Yoko(Mac), Ohkura(Johnny), Maru(Gum), Subaru(Arsenal)

PATCHUPPERS!

Show me everything, your body and soul
On windy mornings and rainy nights, don't let go of my hand
Until the day comes when we arrive
At that world we dreamed of

I'm weightless, in front and behind
Without realizing, I start to run again
I met you and we touched each other
But still my heart isn't satisfied

You don't feel - with ordinary motion
So I wanna feel - why won't this fusion blend?

Show me everything, your love and sorrow
Don't look away from the past you've hidden and the future you're heading towards
The miracle of our meeting
Will never fade

-Misetekure, Kanjani8

i loved the way you stared at me. i loved the way you tease me. i loved the way you ran away when you know i got angry at you. i miss those times. i miss those smiles. i miss you. i'll never forget those times. i love you, still. you're my first love and will forever be. even though i'll be with someone else in the future, you're the only permanent one in this small heart of mine. :D:D

~~

2010-10-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

weeets~
tomorrow's everyone's favourite paper!
it's POA bebeh!
bring it on!
i know how to do already!!
thanks to Fazlee and Zaki!
thanks guys!
had a great time staying back with Zaki, Fazlee, Aqid (well, only for a while..), Jiemin, CheaYie (is tht how you spell your name?? ), Siti Zailiyah, Iffah and Syarifah.. :D:D
Zaki was a POA great teacher!
oh, and Fazlee too!
even though you taught me the wrong thing at first. LOL
ok, gonna start practicing my POA now.
byebye! ~
all the best guys! :D

firetruck you. you think i'm the only one with attitude problem? it's your attitude that suck like damn shit. i've just been keeping quiet about it. damn you. told you not to disturb me until after my exams right. you disturb me, your problem ah. firetruck.

feakkkkk

2010-10-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

i can't find any K8 songs to be put inside my playlist for my blog. FREAK.

what's so wrong about uploading Kanjani8 songs instead of just Arashi?! -.-

yellow ranger madness~~

2010-10-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

1722 hours

aww, sad, the quality's not that good. oh well..

seriously.. Ohkura look like a cat with that blonde hair! Only Yasu can go well with it!
But it's still quite cool, though. ;b
i'm watchin Kanjani8's countdown concert right now.
so nostalgic - the time when i first reacted after seeing Kanjani8's GIFT album at HMV in Somerset.
LOL.
my reaction was epic! hahah!
"who's these retarded people?"
but although they are retarded, they are pretty smart.
they're awesome. they're special.
:D:D
ooh, i LOVE brulee's performance.
i should post this in my livejournal, but oh well.
i want to share Johnny's love here too! ;b

nothing interesting happened today...
surprisingly i got 7 for my SS test..
was expecting a three..
i didn't study it. AT ALL.
i didn't even look at the page. (exept for ONE of the measures for ageing population thingy..)
i'm counting on my history to cover up! ^^
HISTORY ROCK MY SOCK. :D
i'm supposed to be studying!
for math, especially!
why the heck am i here?!?!
alright, shut up. going off! :D
byebye!

何千回も夢を見て
Nanzen kai mo yume wo mite
No matter how many thousands of times we see dreams
何千回も締めて
Nanzen kai mo akiramete
Even if we give up thousands of times
それからだぜ
Sore kara daze
We start from there
小細工はなしさ
Kozaiku wa nashi sa
There are no tricks, so
どの道　この道　俺道ストレート
Dono michi, kono michi, ore michi sutoreto
Which way, this way, my-way is straight

- Gori Gori byy Kanjani8 :D

signing off with Ryo-chan! :D

ooops, no, YELLOW RANGER! :D:D

even though you're far away.. my love for you still exist. in the world of love, i know, there is no such thing as shiok sendiri. cause i know you loved me too. :D

11 papers to go!

2010-10-01T14:36:00.000+08:00

1500 hours~

I FRAKING FLUNKED MALAY PAPER.
FISHES!
what is 'pancaroba'?
Hafiz: sight.
Matin: a firghtening situation
Me: five senses
Fazlee: (your answer was too merepek that i can't even remember.. -.- )
what do you think?
even though all of us didn't know what it really was, smart Matin got it right. !!!
danggg...

English paper - NO HOPE.
i seeerrriiiousssslyyy feel like giving up.
but no, i can't.
for him. :D:D
who's the 'him'?
i don't know?
guess lah..
who sia?
actually, i also don't know? LOL
LOL? what the heck.. -.-ll

anyway, i'm preparing for wars on Monday.
WAR ONE - war with Mrs Tan Yem Peng (is that even how you spell her name?) for Math homework.
WAR TWO - war with Mdm Nora because of the MAC meeting.
WAR THREE - war with him!! :D:D

yeaps..
gosh, i'm seriously getting crappy right now..
byebye! :D

Shouting, ready to everything, without feeling any inferiority,
still I have to pass today, somehow I have to spend it.
Getting covered by footprints, 'cos somehow I want to find a meaning,
I'll strengthen my shoulders and spit on the ground.

I'm fighting packing punches,
I want to feel even more pain.
I know, I'm putting my own self
on this guy in front of me.

- Monologue by Nishikido Ryo (Kanjani8 & NEWS)

shitty SS test..

2010-09-28T16:19:00.000+08:00

1721 hours

FISHES!! I WAS COUNTING ON THAT SS TEST, DAMMIT! NOW I CAN'T MAKE MS XU HAPPY.
THE LAST THING SHE TOLD ME BEFORE THE TEST WAS "I'M VERY WORRIED FOR YOU. BECAUSE YOU FAILED YOUR HISTORY TEST AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO FORGO THIS TEST."
WHETHER OR NOT I TOOK THIS TEST, IT DOESN'T MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE. I'M GONNA FAIL THIS TEST CREATED IN A SHITTY SITUATION. FIRETRUCK!
EVERYTHING WAS FINE UNTIL YOU WERE CAUGHT READING YOUR NOTES! D:<
but, rumours might not be true all the time..
so, i don't know which part is not true, but i know you were in the wrong.
but i can't fully blame you.
because it's just normal to clarify your doubts. (:
forgive. and forget. (:
it was our fault too, to assume what's gonna come out..
so, you're not totally to be blamed. ;D

ANYWAY,,,,,,
I CAN'T WAIT TO GET RYO-CHAN'S KEYCHAIN!!!!
yeah, hasn't reached Singapore yet..
ok, that's all.
2 DAYS TO EOY DUDES AND DUDETTES OUT THERE!

You can do it, you really can do it, run through it, pass through the light
Again everything, for all the world, things like complaints and anxiety will stay around,
I've given everything to you, I want you to smile once more, to laugh once more
Because there's still more to come, it's not over

- LIFE~ Me no Mae no Mukou e (Kanjani8)

whhhheeeeeeeesssshhhh~

2010-09-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

2011 hours

oh gosh, i can NEVER say that i'll NEVER touch this computer again.
just can't help it.. ;b
end of years are coming...
i'm seriously studying, alright! hahah!
ehhhhhh~
school's worse than ever.
problems came up one after another.
but, oh well.
i have to start living for myself and not for others.
i have to start living to please myself and not please others.
like, seriously.
i don't care what others say.
as long as i'll be happy, i'll do anything i like.
hahah, like drawing.
currently protesting against my mum who won't let me draw.
don't know what's up with that.. but.. oh well..

jalan raya with friends yesterday!
OMG, i shouted when my mum allowed me to go!!
but didn't really enjoyed myself though..
i almost felt like i was transparent..
but it was waaayyyy much better than last time. :D
thanks to my AWESOME FRIENDS Nazihah Na'amsah, Nurul Irdina, Ezaidah Wahyu Nur Atiqa and Nurra Safirah! <3
oh, and Yazid for talking to me at the train station (although it was only two to three lines)
but the best part was when i got to talk with Ezaidah and Atiqa as per normal again!! :D
too bad Matin didn't get to join us... D:
get well soon, dude.
i'm tired of saying this already.

oooooh, and guess what?!
my mum's friend is getting us NEWS goodies from Japan!!
aaaaahhhh~!!!
although i reaaaaalllllly wish for Kanjani8 ones..
but my sis' getting Nasu and Yellow Rangers' keychain!!!
from California!!
seriously, being an eighter had globalized me! :D:D:D

ok, so that's all for now! :D

i don't know why, but i have this incomplete feeling that kept me going online, checking the net. but i don't even know which website it's leading me to.
yeah, in the end, i landed on this website.
maybe the feeling is trying to let out all everything i've kept inside?

true love is someone who you get angriest at, who you will cry for, and who you will miss like shit when they're gone. i love you. still. (guys, please don't think it's Ian. seriously)

22 september!!

2010-09-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

2132 hours~

aaaah!!
dang, can't resist it!!
have to blog, have to blog.
that's all i think about.
i can't take everything that's happening to me right now.
one problem after another.
what's wrong with me?
gosh, can't i just have a peaceful life?
BUT. i'm so happy that I HAVE ACTUALLY STARTED MY REVISION!!!!!!!
^^
ok, something wrong with the font right now...
shhheeeesssshhhh.....~~~~

this is a song to all my muslim friends. i've just got to know it recently. it really helped me through my current situation, Alhamdulillah. :D

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent
And that's it's way too late
You're so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you'll find your way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you'll find your way

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in him
Raise your hands and pray
ooo Ya Allah
Guide my steps don't let me go astray
You're the only one that showed me the way
Showed me the way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah we'll find the say

- Insya Allah by Maher Zain :D

OH, AND BY THE WAY, HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY, SUBARU!! AND HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, EITO!!!! <3

oh, and you. if you know who i'm refering to.
yeah, i know it's kinda rude to blog about this, but i guess this is better than facebook.
even if i like you, you seriously don't have to reject me that harsh, damn you.
and seriously, no matter what i'm still older than you, apparently.
too bad, you still have to respect me.
i treat you as my brother and i get this shit from you?
and fuck off was all you knew?
i'm sad, dear brother.
you need a new english teacher. like, seriously.

i'm going on a hiatus, guys! :D

2010-09-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

1857 hours~

whhhheeesssshhhh~~!!!
tomorrow's tha last day, guys!! :D:D:D:D
anyway, since i'm not going to touch my lappie until after EOY after this post, i would like to wish all my muslim friends

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!! in advanced. :D
and to my other friends, start mugging!!!
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR EOY!! :D

okay.. i'll be on a hiatus now..
see you.... soon (:
byebye!

Ryo-chan is loved!! oh, no.. KANJANI8 is <3333!!!><

2010-09-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

gooossshhhh... i need to buy specs!!
like seriously..
walking like a blind man in the dark and showing a crammed face reading the little details on the computer?
confirm plus chop i have to get a new pair of specs.
going with Munah on wednesday~
aww, miss going out with you guys..
the sky's super dark right now..
but still not raining..
ok, lightning!!
byebye!!

You know you love me, i know you care
Just shout whenever, and i'll be there
You want my love, you want my heart
And we will never ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl quit playing
We're just friends, What are you saying
Said there's another, look right in my eyes

My first love broke my heart for the first time
And i was like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine.. mine

1653 hours

coarse language alert!~

2010-09-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

2049 hours ~

*coarse language alert! but oh well.. i just can't keep this feeling to myself anymore. uhh, come on.. 2 continuous years keeping this inside me?.. but friends, please don't read this.. hahah! ;D

to that 'special' someone whom i've been keeping my hatred for..

you've lowered my dignity.
you've made me cry.
you've hurt me like hell.
you've made stories about me like shit.
you've told the whole world about that shit you made.
you've snatched my friends.
now what? you're dumping them?
back off la.
i regret not calling you a bitch last time.
i don't care even if you see this post.
well, that's want i really want.
wake up la.
you think this world is only yours?
then dude, you seriously need to wake up.
this world doesn't revolve around you and only you.
and seriously, even if your mouth is shut, the whole damn world already know about it.
it's about YOUR actions, not her mouth.
and you want to know why i don't want to say this face to face?
first, because i don't want to waste my precious time arguing with you, looking at your pretty face, feeling like smacking it all the time.
second, because i want the whole world to know how bitchy you can be.
you're a bitch and you made me one too, bitch.
you've hurt my friend and i'll make sure i'll hurt you.
you've won last time, but i promise, you'll never win this time.

anyway, to the bright side!
hahah!
i've always been wondering what love really is..
is it a feeling that makes your heart pump fast when you see him?
is it a feeling which you can feel your blood rising up to your head?
is it a feeling which you feel like seeing him everyday?
is it a feeling which makes you feel like wanting him to be by your side always?
whhooosshh~
i'm confused..
minie mynie minie more?
aiisshhh.. why must i always be left with more than two choices?
aaiiissshhh.. heh ;D
i'm being retarded.. :/
4 more days~ nyahahaha!
right? lol..
anyway, start mugging everyone!!
like what..? 3 more weeks?
whheeessshh, that's near!!!
*breathe in, breathe out.. next thing to do, PANIC AT THE DISCOOO!!!!
heh, i mean PANIC!! next thing to do.. RUUUUNNNN!!!
gosh, seriously, i'm getting so retarded..
so.. i want to be retard no more (heh, Shakespearean language? lol..)
sayonara, sayur kobes! bye! :D

the awesome council (:

2010-07-03T15:43:00.000+08:00

1610 hours

Amirah - The best female head councillor ever. You're strong, you're brave and you're a great leader. And most importantly, thank you for your great patience!! :D

Arina - The most awesome Vice-head i've ever seen. You're so enthu and you've always made my day. You're easy to talk to and fun to play with. Thank you for making every event successful and enjoyable. Thank you for leading the council to the correct path. :D

Amanda - one word to describe you - you're just simply AWESOME. an awesome secretary, an awesome friend and an awesome leader. I'll miss your 'hi's and your 'bye's and i'll never forget them :D

Head of Events, Filzah - you're sweet, you're nice and you're kind. you made every event successful and without you, i guess everything will go wrong (although i'm not sure what was going on behind the scenes) But i want you to know that I love you for being a great senior. :D

; Afiq - OMG, there's no word to describe you!! you're more than awesome, do you know that?? i love your flag trainings and i remembered every single thing you taught me. you're a wonderful flag trainer and i'll never be able to do it without your encouragements. you can be serious at times, but you're always humourous to me. i love your jokes, especially the 'breaking the chair' thingy. i will never ever forget you. :D

Head of discipline - Kian Hui - first thing i have to say; thank you for lending me the council badge when i lost it. which is the equivalent to 'thank you for saving my life'. :D

; Woan Ting - i will never forget your Doraemon shoe :D

Head of welfare - Azurah - everytime i see you, i'll sing the 'Azurah' song :D you're caring and ever ready to help us out. thank you for that :D

To the other seniors, i 'll never forget you too! you guys are fun to play with and easy to talk to! now that your exams are coming, i don't think there's time for us to play anymore.. D:
but anyway, you guys are just so awesome!! ILOVEYOU!!!

oh, and Ayu, I LOVE YOUR FLAG TRAINING!! without you and Afiq, we will never be able to pull the flags properly. after listening to your 'lessons', even though it was just my second time doing it, i was able to do it right. and thanks to you both, i was able to pull the flag even without my partner. i really appreciate that. I LOVE YOU!!!!

To the new Head, Qi Cheng, congrats and i wish you all the best in leading the council!
To the new Vice-head, Amalina, congrats, and i hope you could keep up with Arina's good work!
To the new secretary, Yeyu, congrats and i hope you could be as good as Amanda too!
To the new Head of Welfare, Iffah and Zheng Yu, congrats and all the best for solving problems!
To the new Head of Discipline, Janziel and Rachel, congrats and i hope you could be as fierce as Kian Hui and Woan Ting!
and lastly, To the new Head of Events, Nicole and Gagandeep, congrats and i hope you could try organizing an event peacefully! (i guess i know how tough it is to organize something) :D

and to the other councillors, let's be as great as the sec 4s for the sake of the sec 1s! :D
let's be great seniors too, kays? (:

8 more days~

2010-06-24T17:51:00.000+08:00

1758 hours

wwwooooossshhh~
had fun yesterday!!
watched Toy Story 3D at Ang Mo Kio Hub with these people :-
Carissa Wong, Zheng Bin, Seyou,
Keith, Sabila, Syarifah, Shaun, Hafiz and.... Matin!!
oh, yeah.. not forgetting my younger bro...
it was awesome!!
oh, and THANK YOU KEITH AND ZHENG BIN FOR SITTING BEHIND BECAUSE OF SEYOU!!

had SCI rehearsal today..
it was wonderful
NOTE: 'wonderful' is the 'in' thing for eighters now since Kanjani8's new single is called 'Wonderful World' :D

nothing much happened...
i'll end my post here then (:

Poem to Uchi

2010-06-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

my first fanwork~ (can be viewed at my livejournal too (: )

Uchi Hiroki

We would never forget the times we had with you
The times when you cried after every concert,
The times when you tried to act cool by holding your tears
But when it fell, your pretty tears became visible
It will always be pretty to us

We would never forget you who are timid
You who would cling on to Ryo when you're in trouble,
You who would wrap your arms around him, finding warmth
But it all ended too soon,
Leaving him alone in a puddle of wishful tears

We would never forget the ones who brought you down
The ones who crippled our group mercilessly,
The ones who made us incomplete
But nothing can change now
But without you, it will never be Kanjani8

NOTE: First paragraph is a reference from a quote Okura said about Uchi. (below) Taken from http://community.livejournal.com/kanjani8_quotes/ , shared by stringless_kites

Ohkura → Uchi
Uchi is a crybaby. Normally he pretends to be cool, but he has often cried in front of me. At the end of a concert he has also cried, but the tears of that kid were pretty. (laughs)

last weeeek of holidays!! D:

2010-06-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

2324 hours

last week of holiday!!!
oh wait, do i even have a holiday???
and... it's... HOMEWORK WEEK!!! week of torture...!!!!
ggaaaaahhhh...
one and a half more years to deal with the almost-useless algebra!! :D
stay optimistic! ;D

had fun just now with Carissa Wong, Juliana Ang, Yeyu (i don't know your surname! sorry!), Nicole Yang and Sabila Bila!!!!
oh, and not forgetting the guys, Zheng Bin, Kevin, the oh-so-awesome-and-always-a-victim-of-our-fight Wilson Wong, Ahmad and Hafiz!!! (hopefully i didn't miss anyone!!)
we had FOOD FIGHT at McDonald's!!
there were flying half-eaten fries and even a paper plane!!!
how awesome can that be??
too bad Wilson were always hit by fries that we threw though he was innocent.. hahah!!

if only time would stop then...

i would never, EVER forget them!!
the time we spent together will never be forgotten!!! :D
anyway, i reeeeeaaaaalllllyyyy have to start on my English homework..!!!!!!!
ok, i wont prolong this post..
have fun doing your homework!! ;D

the only ship that wouldn't sink is friendship..

current mood: excited
music in mind: Mugendai - Kanjani8
( :D livejournal format :D )

school reopening!!!!

2010-06-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

1512 hours

OMG!!!
school is gonna reopen soon!!!!
ggaaaaaahhhhhh!!!
but so happy i've started on my homework! [but doesn't mean i'm gonna finish it soon]
next week is the last week of holidays!!
but, oh well, i'm going to school already...
gooooooood byyyyyyeeeee, my draaaaaaaammmmmaaaaasssssss......~~~!!!!!!
work hard, work hard, work hard!!!
a year and a half to O-levels!!!!
ganbatte!!!!
*wooow, this post is full of exclamation marks, ne..*
ok, gonna finish up my drama series now!!!!
bye!!! (:

my first pen-pal!!!!!!!!

2010-06-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

1853 hours

I've got a pen-pal!!!!
she's from Japan!!! i was like, OMG!!
my first pen-pal~
thank you, Ms Xu!!!!!!
gaaaahhhh!!!
i wrote back to her and sent the letter just now.
:D :D
and guess what?
I'VE STARTED ON MY HOLIDAYS HOMEWORK!!!!!
i did the three Malay worksheet..
did even the compre for the first one, didn't do only the compre for the second one, didn't do both MCQ compre and compre...
hahah! was getting lazy by then..
ok, gonna watch my Jap drama now!~
byebye~