retard.

Alhamdulillah, got 16 for L1R4. (:

though i expected a bit better..

oh, and if you, bitch, are reading this, hah, go ahead and tell the whole world how bad my score is compared to yours.

hahahah, if only one i can face you again..

i'd really wanna punch your bitch face.

but, oh well, life's awesome without you in it.

it's kinda boring though.. not being bitch-ed about..

for three years, i've been layan-ing your shitty crap, so i got used to it. hmmm.

okay, enough about that. i promise i'll never think about that bitch again this year.

it's a new year, man! why cling onto the past? it'll only do me bad..

mum asked me what i want as a present for my unbelievable results. aww, i love my mother.

hmmm, what do i want eh?

i just want a family.

i want a father. my father.

my father who i thought i knew so well.

my father who i thought was the best father in the whole wide world.

my father who i thought was the only one in my heart.

can the fairy tale just continue?

hmmm, fat hope.

oh well, i should really stop being so emotional this year. hehee.

poly posting results coming out soooon. don't know when though..

hmm, just wish me luck!

wokaays, will blog on my next off day!

hah, yeah, i'm working with "BlackCloset" at Isetan.

seriously macam setan! ish ish.. will talk about it some other timeeee.

okok. BYEBYE!

doron!

weeeew~ backs!
wonder why blogger is so different now..
life's awesome.
went for checkup yesterday, nothing much.
everything's fine. (:
NO CANCER! :D
had council farewell last wednesday.
wasn't as fun as last year. ):
no bbq, no movie marathon, NO COUNCIL CHEER!!! RAWR.
but still, it was fun. last moments with the councillors..
can't believe we were told off for being cheerful on a solemn occasion, though.
what the hell. haiyyaaa, last scolding from ms soo.
result's on the first week of january.
just hoping for the best...!!!!! D;

i'm all alone at home now.. sadded.
so lonely.. ):
there's still a few places i would reeaaalllly want to venture before school starts!
hmmm..
- fort canning
- bukit timah hill
- sembawang park
- the west part of singapore!

okaay. hmmm. i want to go east coast park tooooo!
someone, PLEASE take me there. D:
oh, jurong bird park, also. since i have free entrance. ;p
but too bad not working in zoo anymore.. :(
if it weren't for the beer, i would still have worked there.
oh well. lemme enjoy my hols first~
oh, went on GRED LINES adventure the other day .
GRED --> Green + Red
the mrt lines. get it?
ANYWAY, went Jurong East first.
then went to RVHS! aww, sweet memories there.
then went to this park in Boon Lay, since it's already nearby.
the park was so aman.. peaceful.. a nice place to go when your life's all fucked up.
but recently, the mrt system's such a mess.
3 days in a row, services disrupted. what the hell, smrt?
i want to go on an adventure on the buses too!
asyik ambik mrt jer.. naik mendak lah pulak..
okay lah, that's all for this post~
BYEBYE!

walau raga kita terpisah jauh,
namun hati kita selalu dekat.
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu.
percayakan kesetiaan ini,
pada ketulusan a a ai aishiteru. <3

- aishiteru, zivilia band

okaaays.

I'M BORED TO DEATH.

gosh, someone, HELP ME.

waiting for my sister to come home.

lambatnyer~

hmmmmm~

i really don't know what to blog about.

having mixed feelings. no, i mean moodswings.

and it's SERIOUSLY, FREAKING annoying, not being able to breathe properly.

seriously.

can i just be hospitalized again?

i can get attention 24 hours a day.

cool sehh. no need be attention seeker like someone said i was.

hah, in the end, who was the attention seeker? letting the whole school know about us.

what the hell. hah. kay Mai, stop talking about that.

anywaaaay, PROM'S ON MONDAY! ^^

yipeeee~

for the first time in... 10 years?

wearing a dress~

wanted a gown, though.. ):

neh mind. finally i can be a girl. a pure one.

tomboy? nooope. no more!

well, at least just for monday!

ohmygawd, my stomach's churning.

KAK! CAN YOU COME BACK A LIL FASTER?!

it's already past 2am in the mooorrrning!

dayum.

wow.. ader lah aku tertunggu-tunggu mak aku tengok results aku.

akhirnya, pandang kat kertas tu pon tidak.

wow. hmmm, baik. k.

aper kalau aku dapat 12 untuk O's aku eh?

aku rasa, tu pon, mak aku tak pandang laa.

tengok ah kakak aku. dapat 10. hmmm. ye laa, aku ni, mana sepandai kakak aku la kan..

when will she even notice my existence eh?

bila aku mati baru kot..

mesti korang cakap "jangan lah cakap gitu.." kan?

ah ye. dah biasa dah orang cakap gitu.

korang maner faham. betapa sakitnya hatiku ini. cheeyyy, speakong ah ni budak..

heeee.

okay la, no time to ber-emosional.

last paper tomorrow.

heard it? LAST PAPER TOMORROW!

paper tomorrow and what am i doing now?

BLOGGING. TUMBLRING. FACEBOOKING.

wow. awesome. takyah belajar pe?

oh, it's 1111! <3

kay, nothing special.

ever since i came back from my cousin's, it felt like i'm back to my old life.

yeaps. exactly. feeling neglected and powerless.

powerless? come on, a Leo shouldn't be feeling that way!

but, what to do? my smart sister is always making me feel small.

of course i hate to lose, but i can't do anything else.

whatever i say, i'd still lose. kay, maybe you don't understand what i'm talking about.

forget it.

been emotional these days.

PMS. guh.

can i just permanently stay at my cuz's? D;

he's the bessstesst friend and the only one who can understand me!

can someone else understand me as how he does? );

i guess i'll scare all the guys away with bitchy attitude.

maybe i should just get away from guys. no, from everyone. hmm, that's better.

oh, look. how long does it take for me just to create a post? 45 minutes?

what the hell.

okays. gonna study now.

I'M GOING TO STUDY NOW. kaythanksbye.

heeeyyy. kay, long enough?

was reading through my old posts just now.

brought back old memories, ne~

i really wanted to delete my blog. no point keeping it right?

well, yeah, that's what i thought.

but reading all those posts again made me think how immature i was.

i got to know myself better. heeee~

okaays. so where was i since the last post?

hmmm. hospital stay? done!

gonna have a follow-up on the eighteenth.

daaang, how i hate the ultrasound check-up.

i have to fill my bladder until i get urgent. to pee. and i have to hold it.

i have to suffffer through the check.

guuhhhh. neh mind, just bear with it, Mai! :D

having O-Levels. weird. why am i even online?!

hah. nah, left with Science MCQ. paper 1.

it's next Monday. soooo, MCQ only mah.. weekends can study laa.

haiyyooo, Mai, where can like that..

hahah, here comes my Singlish accent. kay, Mai dah merepek.

i did my best for all my papers. except POA. i gave up. some of my classmates didn't even turn up for the paper.

haiyooo. but paper one was fine. i guess.

really went full-throttle for Math. i don't want to fail, okay!

there's no time for failures!

i've always had this in my mind : LET'S GO ZENKAI. (full-throttle)

and yeap, i did.

planning to work in the zoo during the hols.

but have yet to call for an interview.. :/

hmmmm.

oh! i found this dress on a blogshop.

maaan, i really wanna buy it.. ):

hmmm, i'll try to persuade my mum.

i'm using my own money, anyway.

should be fine with it.

i have nothing much to blog about for now..

i guess that's all, then. (:

byebyeees~!

~ you stole my heart. and i want you to keep it. will you?

weeeeeeew~

long enough? yeapyeap.

hmmmm, where do i start?

hmmmmm.

have been watching Ao no Exorcist and Zenkai Girl.

RYO IS SOOO CUTE IN ZENKAI GIRL!

every scene of him is a kyyaaaa scene. ^^

kyyaaaaaaa. he's just so cute! i ship them both. <3

hmmm, school? school's fine (:

have to go for counselling almost everyday.

social adjustment disorder.

what the hell is that?

have to go for follow ups at the hospital, blahblahblah.

LOTS of things are happening. but Mai, stay cool. heehee.

from now on, i won't care about what others say about me.

i'll start to be selfish and only care for myself.

i'm a slut, bitch, attention seeker, sore loser? whatever.

at least i'm not poking into others' business and i mind my own. (:

i might not be updating my blog often. "will", that is.

but i'll try to keep it alive. (:

sooo, i'll just go off now. byebyess~