1357 hours
ohh, yeay, it's the hundredth post. -.-
i don't have anything special for this post..
feeling quite down nowadays..
sheeesh, being rejected badly, that's what i hate the most.
being rejected by my closest friend,
THAT'S EVEN WORSE.
tssk.
i hate being looked up upon when they're in need
and then leave me just like that when they're happy.
tsssk, WHAT A BITCH.
oh, yeay, i'm finally using that word. -.-
yes, i got used to that word ever since that thing happened.
though until now, i'm still not clear what the hell happened.
AND NO ONE ELSE HAS TO KNOW IT.
so DON'T EVER ask me about this thing.
i just need to express it out, okay.
something i've been holding on to.
once it's been done, i'll NEVER forget it.
unless the whole story is being explained laah..
okay, don't mind that anymore.
i mean, the thing that happened a long time ago.
i can't think straight anymore..
i don't have the physical and emotional strength to think about it anymore.
if you know you're going to hurt me over and over again,
just, leave me alone, alright.
i'm not worth anything in your life.
i mean, i just exist when you need me.
and when you're happy, you forget me.
do you know how sad it is?
get a life, dude.
oh, wait. i should say that to myself.
i have to get a life.
I DON'T LIVE TO PLEASE YOU.
it's always about YOU.
it's you, you and YOU.
i hate you.
wooow, that's so dramatic!! ^^
hahah!
now i have an idea for my fanfic!
suhhweeets!
i love the recent weather.
it's so nice~
i hope it's gonna be sunny next Tuesday!
cuz we're having a reunion!
O_O
dangg, i'm getting retarded.
again.
heh :b
and knowing that conference guy..
he really changed my current life.
heh.
now with him on my mind, i can't choose between two!
i did say "i hope i can meet him again.. oh, no, that would just make the situation worse"
and, indeed, it did.
but i hope i can meet him again.
so i have the chance to talk to him.
and tell him i just want to be friends.
((:
damn, that conference guy is cute!
but he's handsome. ;b
oookaaay, this post is long enough.
so much for my 100th post, huh..
aites, hear from me soon! :D:D
my dramatic life..
私の劇的な人生
i hope it's the right thing! hahah!